Falling For You

Chapter 8

Just so you know, I decided to write this chapter in first-persons-pov, so don't freak out or anything😊. Anyway, here we go.

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Killian

"You", I whispered before ending the call. Hoping that she didn't hear it.

Why?

Because I'm her big brother. The one who comforted her whenever she had a nightmare, but also the one who left her because of her boyfriend. She hated me after that.

Sure, during her pregnancy we talked about it a lot, and in the end she forgave me, but she would and could never fall in love with me after everything that happened.

I looked at the background picture of my laptop. It was a picture of a young me, David and Emma, the same one I had printed on a T-shirt for her.

The day I entered this family is the still the best day of my life. From the moment I saw them, I knew I would love them. And when I finally got to meet Emma, because she wasn't born yet when they adopted me, I knew I would love her more than I could ever love anyone.

And now she probably hated me. IF she had heard what I said of course. I buried my face in my hands, suddenly noticing that my cheeks were wet.

How long have I been crying?

I started thinking about tears, about how weird they actually are. I remembered that back when Emma was only 2 months old, she used to cry a lot. David and I didn't understand why, so Mom told us that sometimes your eyes need to pee, and when you are a baby, you can't hold it yet.

Somehow that actually made sense to us.

I smiled at the memory, but suddenly that one beautiful memory of tears was replaced by the most recent. Regina's tears. When I left her.

She looked so helpless. And I actually left her. All alone. With a three-year-old, who probably didn't even know yet that his father had left.

How would he react? How would Henry react? Would he hate me?

And what if, probably not, but what IF Emma and I are going to date? Would he be okay with that?

Yeah, he loves Emma, but he also loves Regina.

"Killian?", a lady's voice said from somewhere beside me. I looked up looking confused and possibly shocked since I didn't notice her before apparently. "Hey, why are you crying?", she came to sit besides me and wrapped her arm around my shoulders.

That broke me. I started sobbing, pushing my hands in my eyes in order to hide my face. "Killian, you can tell me anything, you know that right?".

"Yeah, I do, it's just uhmm... I finally realised how much pain I must've caused Regina and Henry, and, bloody hell, I'm such a failure!", I said, getting frustrated that the tears wouldn't stop falling.

"You are not a failure, Killian, you can't think of yourself like that. You just have to have hope that everything works out in the end. Now I don't know who you ended up falling in love with, but who ever it is, she is worth it. Love is worth it".