October 12th, 2013
Dear Journal,
One year has gone by. If you ask me how I’ve done it, I really don’t know. It’s been really hard, that is for sure. I’ve been depressed for the most part. I just still cannot believe that a whole entire year has passed by me. Ever since it happened, well let’s just say I don’t have the friends I used to. They basically left me because they had no way of getting through to me. In the past year, I probably spoke a minimum of 4 words. And they were all to my mother. She’s all I have now. My dad left me when I was a young toddler, but that’s not even the reason I have been depressed. I could not care at all about him. He doesn’t even know what’s happened – and I doubt he ever will.
I decided if I wasn’t going to talk, I might as well tell someone or something. You know? With a journal. Okay, well, tomorrow will be the first day of school that I will go to in about a month. My mother kept nagging me about going because school started a month ago.
Oops.
I don’t even care about school. What’s the point? I’m not stupid but I’m also not like her. I’m not in all AP classes. I will never be like her. Oh and I guess because I haven’t even said what has made me depressed I guess I can tell you. Just promise to not tell a soul? Everyone knows already but no one knows how I actually feel.
Okay. Here goes.
One year ago today was the death of my twin sister. Yes. My twin sister died. She killed herself. She didn’t even tell me. I cannot believe she would leave me like that. Here one day, gone the next. I should’ve seen it coming. That’s what hurts the most. I could not even tell that my sister was so depressed that she thought the only way out was to kill herself.
I cannot kill myself though. I’m not really sure why but I can’t. I want to so bad. I have never wanted something more. The day my sister died, was the day I died. It feels like I’m dead anyways.
I should go. I need a break. I said a lot of stuff and I need some time to recover. Good-bye.
For now.
Always,
Sky.
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FanfictionA girl with a past. A past that everyone knows about. But only she knows how she feels. Sky is a girl who doesn't speak to anyone. She has said about 4 words in the past year after a tragedy. When she returns to school a month late, she finds this f...
