Loving is a very simple act of affection, yet it can build a very strong relationship. So let me ask you, have you been ever left by the person you love? That moving on is like impossible to do? Well, in fact I did, I experienced being left by the girl I loved and the one I cherished the most. It feels like dreaming the worst nightmare that you couldn’t believe you can dream while you are awake. Wishing that it didn’t happened because every time you remember it, it’s like your heart is being crushed into tiny pieces that can’t be fixed anymore. Here is a loving guy’s heart experiencing a lot of pain and heartache until now as he writes this essay. So please sit back, relax and try not to cry as you read my experience.
There are several ways of describing or defining what love is. So what is love? For me I can define love as the greatest gift that we can give or receive to a special person to us. Love is much unexpected, like for example, you can fall in love with a person even though you just saw him/her only once. Do you know why loving is so powerful? It is because it can turn frowns into smiles whenever you are feeling down and it can also held those who are broken hearted, but most of the time loving turn those happy, sweet and worth fighting relationships into heartaches and can turn one person’s heart… broken or worst crashed. Love is part of growing up and all of us know this very well. How do you know if you are falling in love? As time goes by you develop feelings to a very particular person, the only person which might be your closest friend. That feeling of wanting him/her without anyone forcing you to like them except your own will.
Sharing personal experiences of an individual is hard and it depends on them if he/she would like to share his/her experiences to others or if they’d keep it to themselves. In my case, I chose to share mine. To be honest, the moment she left me really devastated me. It’s like I’m going to get crazy because of that intense pain. That wishing to die at that very moment will help me a lot to ease the pain. It feels like my heart is being squeezed as hard as the cold bare hands of the one I once loved could ever squeeze. The moment she told me “I don’t love you anymore, I love someone else, you are worthless and etc.” those painful words, which cause my heart in so much pain, get numb and became the only reason in the world that could possibly make me not want a heart anymore. How can I say and prove that I’m serious to her? I know it takes guts but I introduced her to my parents for her to know that I’m not making any joke in our relationship and to show that I am serious to her, I know this is not an enough reason to prove that you’re serious to someone, but for me I think it depends on the effort the person shows.
Memories involve recollections of past experiences. It may be uplifting and makes you smile or giggle by just remembering it, but it can also be a painful one that can trigger you to be down. I still remember the time when we are still together. Watching movies at my house and it was a rainy cold day and at that moment with her, holding her hands and hugging her tightly was the only thing matters in the world. Those kisses from me to her forehead before she goes to school and before take her home after school. There was a time that I reached the point on asking her mom if I can court her daughter even though I know that her mother will disagree, thinking that it might be worth a try. The sacrifices and the efforts I did for her just to make her happy, yet in the end she chose to leave me and break my heart.
Now, after all this experiences that I’ve been through. It makes me feel like everything is tearing up into pieces and it reached to the point where you want to disappear in that very moment. I can say that people come and go, some stays but others leave and leave a gift. This gift may be good or bad, uplifting or depressingly painful, and etc. it depends on us on how are we going to open and accept what is inside that gift. In my case I’m still trying my best to fully accept that gift she left me which surprisingly is painful. Well, I respect her decision to leave me, my life. It counts a lot before, but today? Maybe a little, but I know that it’s hard to move on but I hope that I can manage to move on from her and I am hoping that one day, I can be happy again without her in my life.
