The Secrets I Keep

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I sat there shaking from the sob racking though my body as I stared at the marks on my arm caused by all the negativity in my life "I just want to be normal and loved" I whispered as I cling to my stuffed panda bear. Suddenly there is a knock on my door causing me to quickly pull my sleeves down and whip the tears "y-yes?" I studder out "it's me sweetheart. Your brother and I are Leaving to go see your uncle...Are you sure you don't want to come with us?" She asked quietly. I close my eyes before standing up and opening the door "I'm sure mom. Go have a bonding trip with kade, I'll be fine" I say subconsciously rubbing up and down my arm "OK Sweetheart. I love you" she kissed my forehead and hugged me before grabbing her keys, heading to the garage with kade on her tail " no house parties while I'm gone! " She yelled jokingly as she shut the door and left. I rolled my eyes and headed back into my room "don't you need a social life to have friends? Don't you need friends to have a party?" I asked myself before slowly falling to sleep.

I woke up to the door bell ringing "for fucks sake" I whispered as I pulled myself from bed and walked to the door, opening it to reveal a teen age boy no older than I "can...Can I help you?" I asked fixing my top realizing I was only in my long sleeve and shorts "yea umm I'm looking for Mrs. Woods is she here?" He asked his voice deep and soothing "umm no. May I ask why you are looking for my mother?" I said crossing my arms slightly annoyed "I'm her friend's son. I'm spending the summer here" my eyes almost popped out of my head at his words. Him? Here? All summer?!? Mom won't be back for a month!! "Um come on in" I said stepping aside and leading him to the living room. Once he was seated and comfortable I ran for the phone and dialed my mom "hello?" "You failed to mention a boy was spending the summer with us" "ohhh shit I forgot Michael was staying with us! Honey I'm sorry" I sighed "It's fine mom, we'll talk about it when you get back from your trip" "do you want me to come home?" Yes! I almost screamed but it's been so long since she and kade had have a bounding time 'its only a month' I told myself "no mom it's fine. Really. You and kade have fun visiting uncle Tom. Love you ,bye!" I said quickly hanging up.

It's been two days since Michael has arrived and we haven't said two words to each other. We're completely opposite! He likes rap I like punk, he likes to eat I like to keep away from food, hes popular I'm.... I'm a nobody " hey you going to eat?" He asked as we sat across from each other eating breakfast "I don't eat" I said simply as I stared out the window "what do you mean you don't eat? Do you have a disorder or....?" He asked unsure if he choose his words correctly "I'm fat so I don't eat" I said quietly as I wrapped my arms tightly around myself  " come here" he said after a moment of silence.  I snapped my head up and looked in his direction "excuse me?" I asked unsure I heard him correctly. He shook his head, picked himself and his plate of eggs and beacon up before walking over to me. We stared at each other before he picked up a piece of Bacon "open" he said holding it to my mouth "why?" I asked pulling back slightly "just open" he said in a commanding tone.  I opened my mouth allowing him to place the piece of fatty meat in my mouth before chowing on it. I look up to see him smile before patting my head "good girl" was all he said as he turned on his heels and headed to the guest room. That's the last he spoke to me that day.