All alone... Depressed and scared

New start

I wake up to a note beside me expressing "hey you slept in late you missed breakfast, umm I was wondering would you like to meet me in my office I saved some food for you, because if you miss meals here you have to wait for the next one and plus it's your first day here and all." Ok great it seems on my first day here I already miss my first real meal. I get up still in my best clothes were I was going to end it all. I sit on my bed wondering who was writing me this letter and why would they care so much about me? I hear a knock on my door. "Hello" the very crisp manly voice radiates through the door makes me shiver. "I have some clothes for you, you don't want to wear the clothes you almost committed suicide in" I joke thinking I wish it would have worked "sorry if that was to soon anyway can I come in?" He voice exclaims again. "Yes" answer back. The nurse comes in it was the handsome guy comes in with some grey sweats in his arms and lays them in my bed and leaves saying better hurry.

I stand in the mirror in the bathroom looking at myself. I make my way down to his office through the light grey halls. I sit on his grey office. I eat my runny pancakes and his voice makes me feel so happy. We just talk about random stuff like my home life. His voice is so sexy it makes me just shiver hearing it. He asks me if I have a boyfriend. I say no because no one really cares about me enough to be my boyfriend. "Hey well I should help some people in their rooms for shower time you should go" he says I nod my head yes and make my way back to my room. I get there and sit on my bed and I hear the door handle move a female pop out behind it. "Hi I'm Ellie I will help you get ready for shower time" she hands me a bag full of shampoo conditioner body wash and face wash. Ellie speaks again "sorry I have to leave now but before I go here is a robe take off your clothes and put it on there will be some one here shortly to help you shower." Thanks Ellie I say. I do as I'm told and the bath robes are like probably the most comfortable things I've ever worn. Another female comes into the room she doesn't say much she just gestures me into the shower. Why is she even helping me it's not like I'm going to kill myself in the shower I just want to feel the water against my throbbing skin. I get in with this woman following me in. The hot water feels so good and it even distracts me from the woman staring at me. Once reality hit me I turned quickly to face away from her for a sense of privacy.

Thanks god that's over I sit back in bed with my sweats on again towel drying my hair. I gaze out the window seeing school buses passing by going into the orange sun rising sun. I look at the clock it's now 8:30 Am. So I look at my schedule for today tapped on the wall. Oh goody looks like I have therapy all day today best first day here ever. In therapy I could barely focus on things I had too. My mind goes to that handsome nurse who talked to me earlier. I wanted wanted his lips on mine his hips against mine his hands clasped in mine our hearts being connected our hearts synchronizing- NO MAYANALISA my mom would say when I would do something bad I hate my name. Like who the hell in the right mind names their child Mayanalisa? Like wtf

The days goes by so quick next thing I know I'm back in bed writing about my day. I feel really sleepy so I go up to the window and look at the dark sky and bright cars go by ambulances with flashing lights pulling in. It's kind of nice being in the 8th floor because I can see below and above and see my neighbouring rooms. I close the blinds and lay in bed wondering what every one though about me not being there oh well I don't give an f what they think I'm happy here and I just wish they would let me stay here forever. The little lights on my tv screen get all blurry into a colourful clump and I fade away into my sleep.

(Okay guys I really hope you are enjoying this story because I feel like I'm just writing this for no reason oh well it's a good story, I promise I will update it as soon as I can)