I'm A Tomlinson? (One Direction Fan Fic)

Chapter 15

Tianah's P.O.V.

** 2 MONTHS LATER **

Sooooo the other day Harry handed me a book. It was empty. The pages are blank. I asked him what it was for and he said "Anything you want" I will admit it was very random, but Harry is a random boy. I've decided to make it my journal. So here it goes....

Entry 1 - May 18th 2013

Hello Jerry.

That's right I've given you a name. Hope you like it.

Anyway..... It's been a total of 3 months I have been living and touring with Louis. And I'm loving every minute. I think Louis has been the best thing that has ever happened to me so far. I say 'so far' because I believe there is still more great things to come in my future. I'm so excited. I have so many friends now! I'm so grateful. They're all so lovely and sweet and I love them all. Harry and I are closer than ever. He is my bestest friend here. Apart from Louis, but Louis doesn't count because he is my brother. Harry and I are always together. He's been there for me a lot. Sometimes I get really upset about what people say about me and Harry is always there to help. I've gotten really used to all the fans and paps now. They don't bother me any more. It's gotten to the point where people can say what they want, but I really don't give a shit any more. I think I'm a lot like Louis when it comes to that. Everything has been so great. There is only one thing though. And that's Zayn. I thought after a while my feelings for him would go and I would forget about it. But no. My feelings have only grown stronger and they grow stronger everyday. We haven't been talking as much as we used to though. I think he's upset with me about something, but I don't know what. I'm just going to give him time and if he want's to tell me he will. It makes me worried and sad to think that I may have done something wrong and he doesn't like me anymore. I've asked him once if everything was okay, but he shrugged me off and told me not to touch him. So I think time is what he really needs right now. I hang out with Harry to distract me from Zayn, but it never works. My mind is always on him. And he may be angry with me and snapped at me, but it doesn't stop my feelings from growing for him. It's most likely just a phase and he will get over it eventually. My tattoo has been put on hold for now. Zayn drew all these great ideas and I chose the one I like best. It's the infinity sign, but on the right at the top it has 'family' written in small graffiti font. It looks really cool and I can't wait to get it. I'm currently sitting in my bunk, in the tour bus. The curtain is closed so no one can see me. I think when I right in you Jerry I should have some privacy, since I don't get much of that anymore. I think that's another reason why I chose you, Jerry to be my journal because people may make up stories, but Jerry, you will always know the truth. Knowing that you know the truth and won't judge me really helps.

Thank you Jerry.

Well I guess that's it for now. I'll try and write in you as much as possible. Talk you soon Jerry! I love you!

Tianah :)

I close my journal. Everything in there is true. I am grateful for everything. Harry and I are really close. And for some reason Zayn doesn't like me at the moment. It's up setting, but I can't do anything about it. I'm startled from my thoughts when the curtain of my bunk is pulled open abruptly.

"Jesus Harry you scared me" I say putting my hand over my heart and trying to breath again. He chuckles.

"Sorry babe" He says.

"Sure"

"What are you doooooing?" He sings.

"Nothing" I say and slide my journal under my pillow. Harry follows my movements.

"Is that the book I gave you the other day?" He asks.

"It is"

"Did you find something useful to use it for?"