a very silent dinner happend on us.
"hey you dont want say anything?"ask him
"hmm, just eat" your answer coldly
we keep eating and does not talk any single word. such a awkward dinner for us.
"im done, left your plate in sink and i wash it later" i say
"just why?" he ask
Dian POV
i left him alone and go to the kitchen. there is thousand thought that super make me confuse. everytime i try to be nice to him. those shitty memories haunt me back.i know its rude to treat your husband like that. but that not i want. im was like have a mind set "DONT BE NICE TO HIM" back then maybe im paranoid ? but if i am paranoid why im accept him ? what a stressfull life urghh.
"hey."
i heard jungkook calling from far. he is standing at the kitchen door. i can see his sad face. im continue washing the plate and wishing he go away bcs i know he will ask.
"why you still acting like this. i thought we are fine enough. i thought you alrdy forgive me. but why you treat me like this huh ?"
the tone he use very soft and try to talk nicely with me. im not even answering his question either looking at him.
"haish, okey dont answer"
soon i heard his footstep getting far. i stop washing and my leg is shaking. i burst into tears. im sobbing hard. and keep asking myself "am i a bad wife" "why im like this" i keep hitting the floor and sobbing until im not realise that my hand is bleeding. soon im feeling dizzy and fall asleep on the kitchen floor
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too short. hehehe update soon
