My Secret

Hi my name is amy,I'm 14 years old.I have 1 Brother and 2 Sisters.I have 2 bestfriend but i have a secret and if i tell them it would messup our friendship.Sometimes it feels like i'm alone,sometimes i wanna kill myself.But i Can't do it i have to much to accomplish when i get older.When i get older i want to be a nurse.But i don't know why i'm living like this i'm getting tired of this shit.Sometimes it feels like my heart skips a beat,and i can't breathe.If i ever tell anyone my secret it will ruin my life.But i have to or people is going to end up finding out.I'm telling you this is the worst secret and i don't want to have a bad reputation and be called a rat or a hoe."it all started when i was taking a shower and my door was unlocked and these boys came in and raped me,and they were my bestfriend's boyfriends.They did that because all the poular girl's told them to.Why did they have to do that to me.All i could feel was this rage in me and wanted to kill them but they were to strong.They left me naked in the bathtub and they said if you tell anybody it's gonna get worse so keep mouth shut.