Soon

Distance

You've got to give me credit. I've kept a lot from the both of you for a long time. I know I told you that I told you everything but you should know I didn't. I just wanted to tell you that. You shouldn't be mad at me, I can still break the barrier of secrets any time I want to. You both know that. Let me explain. It started as an innocent friendship, the first few days of high school you both talked and soon became friends. I watched you both in the background. (I know that sounds creepy but it's not) I've been in the shadows this whole time. It started when he told me he like you, a lot.
"Can I tell her?" I would excitedly ask. Every time you would say no. Every no was another missed chance you had to get her. She liked you and I told you that but you pretended like you didn't know and you intended to keep it that way. All she wanted was a simple 3 word sentence that you never gathered to say, I like you. For you saying love was like having being chained. You couldn't turn back after that word, so you never said it. Every night we would talk and I would bring up the topic of her, the person who cared about you and that you cared about so much, if not more. I could tell. I would let you say whatever you wanted about her until you were tired, or just called me. You would talk for hours and I would sit there silently listening to everything so that one day I could help you tell her those 3 words. In the beginning it was really only you who talked about her, sure she talked about you but not as much as you did. I could tell that with every conversation we had that month that you wanted her, that brown eyes that were full of life and secrets. You looked into those and saw hope. We began not talking so much after you had told me that you didn't want to hurt her feelings for him by you telling him this sentence, I have a girlfriend. You told me that one time when she was around(the girl who liked you). Curious, she asked what he had told me so as I was the barrier between your love and his, I told her that you have been really busy with schoolwork. Don't get me wrong, of course you were busy, but you told me that you weren't too busy for love to come walking into your life, like someone could casually walk right in and might walk right past you without you even realizing it and it did. "Ich leiben niemand " (That's German for I love no one)