Chapter 1

Here i am staring at myself in the mirror wanna know what i see well here i go i see a fucked up person, someone who is a failure at everything and who isn't good enough for herself and others. I got up from my bed and smashed the mirror with one fist the blood began to drip from my wrist then to my elbow and finally onto my rug I grabbed some napkins and wipe it off and wrap my finger with some bandages and threw the napkins into the trash and covered it up with some paper. I pulled the blanket over my head and repeated to myself out loud "just go die, just go fucking die"  my mom came into the room "Faith get up and go eat something" then she playful threw a pillow at me "mom I'm not hungry" she picked up my dirty pile of clothes from the floor and walked out "CLOSE THE DOOR MOM" I shouted as she walked out.

Its been five months since that son of a bitch raped me but i remember like it was yesterday and they all told me that i was asking for it. All i was wearing was my jeans and a huge sweater go ahead i fucking dare you to tell me that i was asking for it i fucking dare you. I plug in my headphones and Therapy by All Time Low started to play then i fell asleep.

I was walking in the hallway with my best friend Avery and a cute guy walked passed us and Avery whistle at him and the he winked at us "Avery why are you so embarrassing huh?" she started to laugh "me embarrassing? honey you need to meet yourself" i flicked her nose "hey i have to give Mr.Hart my papers cause i wanna be with you sophomore  year" "okay i will see you in the lab and hurry up you slut and love you" "okay see ya later you little shit and of course you love me"

I knocked on Mr.Hart's door "come in" he said Mr.Hart is very strict but he have his let loose moments "oh hello Faith so I'm guessing you have the papers i asked for "yes sir" i said nervously "well have a seat i just need to look through your paper and you can go" i shifted form side to side "very good Faith I'm pretty impressed i always knew you had it in you" i smiled nervously "well thanks" suddenly he got up and close the door and came behind me and whisper "i have got my eye's on you since the first time you walked into my office and you might feel the same way" i got up and ran to the door he grabbed my wrist spun me around and covered my mouth "there, there you need to be calm now sweetie my voice muffled "i have never seen someone like you baby girl i want you so bad" he twisted my arms and slowly started to unbutton my jeans and he dropped his pants tears started to stream down my cheeks my eyes are blood shot red he whisper slowly "now this might hurt at first but then you wont feel a thing. He lay my on his desk as he slowly enter me and started to move at a faster pace i have never felt pain like i did right at the moment he leaned down and kissed me and he whisper "don't worry i used a condom and we never speak of this again" he let go of me and i started sobbing hysterically in the corner while trying to get my jeans on.

"BANG! BANG! BANG!" the door broke open suddenly the school guards, principal and Avery came in. Avery rushed to me in the corner and hugged me i burred me face onto her shoulder and the guards put Mr.Hart in cuffs. "H-how'd you know?' "Justin heard you scream and he came and told me and i got scared so i told the guards and when we got to the door we heard you scream so they just broke down the door" i couldn't get up Avery and the principal helped me up and walked me out of the office and there was the entire school standing there staring at me they waled me to the ambulance i got a blanket and just layed ther sobbing i saw Mr.Hart in the police car. My Uncle and my mom came whicj made me cry even harder.

I woke up screaming and crying my older brother rushed into my room and hugged me he whisper "its okay sweetie its okay im here for you" he wiped my tears away "Faith your hand is bleeding" he went into the bathroom and got the first aid kit and clean the cuts and put fresh bandages on my hand "how did this happen" he said angrily i nodded to the mirror "FAITH WHY JUST WHY" he screamed " I-i'm sorry" he got the broom and cleaned the mess up and threw it out and came back into my room he held me close "I'm gonna help you get through this okay your my one and only" that made me smile a bit "now come on i made you some snacks and lets turn that frown upside" i got up and walked into the living room and saw Avery i ran and hugged her i havent seen her since that incident matter of fact i havent seen anyone besides my family everytime she asked me to come over i would say I'm not feel okay and now i feel bad "Faith i missed you so much" a tear came down my cheek "I'm sorry i pushed you aways" "no sweetie i understand you wanted space but i still love you and lets go be fat asses and eat sone food your brother made" i smiled and hugged both of them " you guys are awesome and thans for being there for me"

 well i am working on the rest of the chapter i have no movation to write anymore