Abandoned and in love

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"Roman" I scream running and jumping on to him.

"woah I know you missed me but you have a boyfriend" he said laughing.

"I love you. So much, I'm sorry I miss you I miss us. I didn't mean for us to end. Just take me back please. Please." I say holding his face.

"Of course I will" He says placing a wonderful soft kiss on my fragile broken hearted body.

When all of a sudden I snapped out of my day dream to everyone else realizing their walking down the beach.

I freeze in my tracks to process the dream I just had. I love Roman and I miss him but I cant do that to Reece. He is so awesome. Plus what would this do to there bromance I would kill their brotherly dreams. I cant love Roman.

Reece comes up to me wrapping his arms around me kissing me.

"What are you doing here? Are you ok?" I ask examining him.

"I'm actually pretty hungry and could go for a sandwich the hospital food is awful when your in a coma" He says as Roman smacks the back of his head.

"Owe!!!!! Why" 

"Because you idiot, the girl just lost her mom and you want her to make you food. She should not even be partying she should be grieving. Whose bright idea was it to have a party?"

"Me.." Lizzy says softly

"Well that's stupid. Everyone go home" Roman says pulling me towards the house. 

As we get inside, Roman locks the door. 

After the dream I just had I don't think I want to be in a locked house with him. I might do something I regret.

" Its okay Roman, I am fine no need to lock the door." I say smiling the best smile I can.

"Jezzy you forgot I lost my mom too. You know how I got through it. You. You were my rock. So i'm gonna be that for you. Get your anger out on me. Hit me. Yell at me. Blame me. Do whatever. Let it out. Please don't hold it in. Please it will kill me." He says grabbing my hand and putting it in a fist. 

" You really want me to let it out?"

"Yes, Jezzy you can trust me. I want to help. I do not believe your okay. You forget I can read right through you." As he says this I kiss him. 

I kiss him soft, hard, long, short, fast, slow. I wrap my hands around his neck and pull him closer. I hear him moan witch makes me smile but he pulls away. 

"Jezzy, no your dating Reece. I can not be there for you in that way." Roman says as he throws his hands on his head and walks around. 

"Fine." I yell running up the stairs and slamming and locking the door. After that I just slid down the door and onto my butt touching my lips. 

Why did I do that? What was I thinking?

That kiss was amazing.

What no stop that brain.

I really miss Roman. Remember your trip to Europe?

Stop that and of course I remember. How could I not? Lizzy and I somehow convinced Roman and Derek to come with us. Ever since the four of us have been so close. Then Roman and I became more close then ever and  we even showered together. 

oh my I have to stop thinking about it

Why do you have to stop thinking about it?

because...because i'm with Roman i mean Reece.

Then why did you kiss Roman. 

I DON'T KNOW. Geez who's side you on brain. 

After I finish my mini debate in my brain, I hear a knock at the door. "Its Reece, can we talk Jezzy."

"NO, I just. I need time to think." I say mentally punching my self in the face.

"Ok then umm we will be next door at my grandmas. Romans downstairs if you need anything." Reece says and walks away. 

I went to pull out my phone to call my moms number just to get her voicemail when.... oh shoots I forgot my phone on the counter when I put it down to kiss Roman. 

UGHHH... I stand up, unlock, and head down the stairs. When I reach the bottom I see Roman with two bowls of Ice cream and my phone on the top of the fridge. 

"What the fudge Roman that is so childish why did you put my phone on the fridge"

"Oh shoots must have fell from up there, that had nothing to do with me." he says ignoring my childish comment. 

"Not funny just give it back" I say jumping for it.

"Ummm, no."

"why not?" I asked getting aggravated

"not until you tell me why you kissed me"

"ughhh, can we just forget about it." I say trying to avoid the question. 

He stays silent. 

"fine. fine. fine. I kissed you cause I miss you, and because I don't love Reece..I love you..." As I say those words I can not believe what I'm saying.

"you mean it? With all your heart?"

"Yeah w..." I'm interrupted by Roman closing the space between us. 

This time though it was even more amazing because he kissed back. Then I took off his shirt and he I. Then we started kissing all the way to the stairs. Then up the stairs. then to my door. Then in my room. Then onto the bed. Then off goes the pants and so on.Then oh shoots... were doing this................

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Hey readers, sorry for the late update, i've just been really busy with school, and family things, but i promise that this book will still continue... hope you readers are still interested in reading the rest of my book. Thank you!! 

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