The Heart's Desires. {Robbie Kay}

★ Chapter Twenty-Two ★

Robbie's POV *

I woke up again with less of a headache. It was almost completely gone. I guess I'd fallen back asleep while Alexis was in the shower. Her hair was all in my face and I moved it of the way softly so I wouldn't wake her. She looked so calm and peaceful. It crushed me. She believed Neverland was going to be like the cartoon and movies. Oh boy was she wrong.. I could sense dark magic from the island. Something was happening and I couldn't quite put my finger on it. I had my arm draped around Alexis and I tried as slowly as possible to move it. I wanted to get up but I didn't want to wake her. I slipped out of bed quickly.  She stirred a little but didn't wake. I let out a deep breath and walked over to the couch to get my phone. I heard something vibrating and saw Alexis' phone with Mom(: lighting up the screen. Oh gosh..

"Hello." I answered the phone. 

"ALEXIS WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?! I'VE BEEN SO WORRIED.  YOU DIDN'T COME HOME LAST NIGHT AND I HAD NO CLUE WHERE YOU WERE. TELL ME THIS INSTANT." Lisa (Alexis' mom) screamed into the phone. I pulled the phone away from my ear as the yells pounded through my head.

"Hey Lisa, it's Robbie.  Alexis is fine I promise.  We went to my mum's last night and she stayed with my sister. She left her phone here." I lied. I knew her mum would kill her if she knew she'd stayed the night with me.

"Well I wished she'd have told me. It's 6 o'clock. She still hasn't gone to your trailer??" Her mom asked confused.

"No she hasn't ma'am. I'll call Camilla and have her send Alexis her. I'll drive her home. Don't worry." I said. I heard her sigh.

"Alright. Next time will you have her text me please?" She asked. I nodded then realized that she couldn't see me.

"Uh yeah. I'll tell her." I said into the phone.

"Thanks Robbie. Goodbye."

"Bye." I hung up and cringed. Oh gosh I hope she doesn't get into too much trouble. I went over and attempted to wake up my angel. She wouldn't budge. "C'mon Alexis!! Your mom called and I told her I'd bring you home." Her eyes shot open and she jumped up.

"Shit. shit. shit. shit. shit." She mumbled running to the bathroom to grab her skirt. She pulled the right fabric over her legs and I had to stare. "Does she know I stayed the night??" She asked horrified.  I shook my head.

"No. I told her we visited my mum and sisters and you stayed with Camilla." She visibly relaxed and slowed down a bit. She found her shirt and behind the couch and put them on.  She rinsed out her mouth and re-did her hair.

"Do I look like I got drunk and spent the night with my boyfriend?" She asked worriedly. Boyfriend. I like that. I chuckled.

"No you look gorgeous." I assured her. She walked over to me and I gripped her hips. "Kiss me." I demanded biting my lip. She leaned down and I felt the sweet sensation of her lips upon mine. She pulled back grinning.

"You may wanna put some pants on if you're taking me home." She said looking at my boxers and cocking a brow. I laughed and rolled my eyes. I pulled on my usual shorts and sweatshirt and we walked out the door. We were almost to my car when someone behind me cleared their throat. I turned to be standing eye to eye with Colin.

"Hey." I said innocently.  I knew that he knew I took that wine yesterday.

"I was missing something yesterday, mate." He said with that look that made me feel guilty. I shrugged my shoulder and turned around before he started asking too many questions. I walked beside Alexis and laced our fingers together.

"Robbie," Colin started. "You're so little. Do you even know what sex is?" He said to embarrass me. I stopped dead in my tracks. That son of a bitch... I glanced over at Alexis who was blood red and wide eyed. Her grip on my hand grew tighter and her knuckles were white. Her ears were red and hot. I thought she was going to melt from embarrassment. 

"Fuck you." I said flipping him off chuckling. Colin chuckled. We got into the car and Alexis didn't say a weird. She just stared out the windshield.

"He was only kidding, love." I said rubbing the top of her hand with my thumb. She was tense but slowly relaxed. I drove her over to her house and decided to just drop her off. She needed time with her family before we left.

When were we leaving anyway- we're leaving tommorow at midnight. I felt my throat close up and I thought I'd cry but I held my act together. A man doesn't cry and I'm practically a man. I drove to my trailer and just mapped out what all would happen. I thought I was alone, but I felt the presence of my shadow.

"What do you want?" I snapped.  I heard the loud chuckling from all angles of the room. 

"You know what I want. I want you back in Neverland.  You really think that Alexis is gonna go to Neverland? Stop telling yourself that. She doesn't even love you. She's just going for the eternal youth." The shadow whispered making the hairs on the back of my neck raise.

"You're wrong." I said sternly. "Even if that's the only reason she goes atleast I'll be with her. I- I love her. With all my heart." I said seriously. God I loved her. When we got to Neverland I was going to tell her. I was going to pour my heart and soul out to her.

"Pfft. Like I've never heard that before. Remember that uh- Wendy girl. And oh- Tigerlilly. You let Hook take Tigerlilly to the real world. You let her grow old and watched her loved ones die. You know that hurts because you never said goodbye to your father.  And Wendy.. you watched her be killed by the mermaids. You watched them tear her limb from limb and you feared for your own safety so you didn't do anything. Robbie Kay you're a monster. You don't deserve love, you don't deserve happiness, and you don't deserve Alexis Raye." The shadow finished. It was right. I was a monster. In Neverland I fought for no one but myself. The stories of Peter Pan were partially true but never ended up correct. Tigerlilly wasn't saved by Peter. She was taken by Hook. Her and a few more Indian children. Hook left them in the real world so they'd grow up. So they'd live normally. I sat back and let him do it. He wasn't a one-handed Pirate because "Peter" cut of his hand and fed it to a crocodile.  He lost his hand from the mermaids. They were awful creatures. They would rip your throat out in a heart beat. They weren't the beautiful creatures that children's books make them out to be. They had daggers for teeth and would eat you alive like a piranha. I met Wendy one day in the forest and we'd spent months getting to know eachother. I loved her. I never knew if she loved me back though. We went to the shore to get water when a mermaid grabbed Wendy.  They killed her. Right before my eyes. I didn't even try to help her. I just stood in fear. I was a monster. A coward. I was the villain and villains don't get Bally endings.

"You're right." I admitted defeated. The shadow laughed.

"Have I ever been wrong? Robbie you're going to Neverland tommorow at midnight, regardless of whether Alexis goes or not. Her fate is on you know. You can leave her here, she can grow up, forget about you, have a family, and live happily ever after... Or, she can go with you to Neverland. Never age. And be trapped with you for the rest of her life... unless the island kills her first. Her fate is your choice Robbie Kay. Think about it." The last sentence stuck in my mind. I felt like I was going to get sick and I couldn't breath. I heard a swish of air and a weight lifted of my shoulders. The shadow was gone and I had a choice to make.

I love Alexis. I love Alexis with all my heart. She has made me a better person and I don't know what I'm going to do without her in my life but, I'm gonna have to learn because Alexis is staying her. She can't go to Neverland. I couldn't bear the thought of her dying or being hurt in front of my eyes. I love her too damn much. Alexis was going to live her and forget about me and I was going to live in Neverland and do my best to survive with the unbearable longing for the love of my life...

|| This chapter made me feel all sad. :( Comment what you think is going to happen next!! Thanks for reading! Love y'all!!