The Murder

Chapter 15: Pit Stop for suicide Note

*Tape Recorder*

After killing my first victim, I felt great.
But, when I got home, bottled up emotions began to wondering out of my soul and body faster than a waterfall falling into the ocean.
I began to feel rather sad and depressed. Leading to an unexpected hour of crying.
So I loaded the hidden gun with as many bullets as possible. I sat it aside of the blank paper in which was sitting before me. I grabbed the pen, and began writing my statement in full on details.

"Dear anyone who reads this,

It is, I, Marcia Morgan. The girl who has murdered her number one victim. I'm writing this letter to inform you of my suicide. Assuming that you know me, you should know by now my behavior has been over the years and the mistreatment my own family has done to me. Many since evilness in me. But I'am indeed not evil at all. In my defense, it was the society who has bestowed such hatred among me, creating the monster that you see today. For future notice, avoid treating the people the way you do. This do not only go towards you, but towards many. Many deaths are caused by the physical and verbal abuse that you people give upon others. You cannot cry, nor pout when you find your loved one has committed suicide, you've seen the signs, it isn't hard to tell. So why cry now ?.....
But anyways, this is regarding me as an upset and depressed individual. I like to start off by saying you people are a burden to nature itself. You people disgust me in many ways. You judge innocent people and make them feel alone. Feeling alone is the worst feeling in the world. You Parents treat your good children like their nothing ! Friends aren't friends anymore just like family isn't family. And you know what ? I just now realized this after my mother passed away. God gave us a world to live in. A place that you can make the most of. But no ! You people messed this world up over and over again. How Dare you give a person scars, and they already have scars ?!.....I'm hurting .....I was really hurting and none of cared. Not once and not at all. Do you know how hard it is to live with someone unhappily ?! Someone who constantly make you feel like your birth was an accident ....,someone who downs you instead if building you up ....no one knows how that feels....
Having no mother on Christmas is horrible. And the. Having to spend Christmas and thanksgiving and 4th of July without her is like ...,having no oxygen. Which means I might as well be dead !.....depression keeps coming back. But no one gets it. Not once did any of you sit down and have a REAL conversation about how I feel. I've been searching for guidance from someone...just seeking help. But no one wanted to. What damage have I done to deserve this ? My mother passes away, my friends aren't being real friends, my family .....
.....my hates me ...of course their words are "I love you" or "I'm here for you" or even "are you okay ?" And etc etc and on and on. Yet, their behavior said something completely different.
I get called "dumb", they talk to me like I'm stupid, my father judges the way I dress and sometimes look, and don't even get me started on the others. The point is, to be exact, you people hurt me so badly . So now its just time for me to be free somehow....even if I have to kill. ...

I folded the note up and put it in a secret place so no one will find it.

Then I got up and attempted to put a bullet in my head but I stopped...

I shall carry this mission...it is my duty to get revenge on those who have done wrong and I intend to complete that mission.