I keep falling
For him
For depression
For fear
Fear controls me
Fear stops me from telling him
What I want to say
Fear must have been nonexistent
Last night
When I yelled at my dad
When I told him how I felt
My depression spoke
It held out
I yelled at two people
Both male
Both important to me
One has forgiven
One has yet to speak
My dad is silent
My best friend understands
But what does he understand
Does he understand
I fell so long ago
For him or
For the thought of him
Wanting to meet him
Waiting for the day
He will truly understand
