My Randomness

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I can't do this anymore....I don't know what to fucking do and its like I can't directly talk to a person I AM A CHRISTIAN I keep trying to follow the way of our savior Jesus but I feel so alone...I don't want to do this alone...I don't want to be alone any more...people confuse me with all these other genders and stuff  I can't take it anymore I feel myself going crazy nobody understands me! Like wtf are you?!? If you were born as one gender your that gender for life its in your genes its the way you are its either boy or girl the only genders read the book of Genesis in the bible king James version! I just...FUCK what the hell?!? Were all going to hell to burn for eternity forever and ever and ever, nonstop....were all gonna die don't kill your self at least try to be something it's so hard being a Christian... Nobody understands me I sin every day and cry every night I want to die but I'm afraid of what awaits I want to kill everyone but at the same time I want you all to kill me....kill me please...I hate life I encourage others to keep living but how am I supposed to encourage others when I can't even help myself...