Dan and Phil one-shots

Mixed messages

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Your POV
"Cut!"
On YouTube I've always made short films representing hard things I had to go through to get where I am. I still made a few, maybe funny moments, and some serious. This one was painful to make, but I had to do it. Recently, I broke up with the one that I love. I still love him obviously, which is why the film was so difficult for me to make. It had to happen. We were drifting apart, and almost every night turned into yelling matches. We used to be able to talk to each other about everything but it stopped near the end of our relationship. The break up was mutual, and we're still very, very close.
Anyway, after we broke up I didn't leave the house for a few weeks. I was heartbroken, and to be honest I still am. But I decided to get my ass in gear, and make something out of this difficult time like I always did. I called my manager, asked him if he could make a few calls and get auditions started for my next short film. After a month of creating everything, we started the recording process. It took longer than I thought but today it was finally finished.
"That's a wrap everyone! I just want to say thank you so much for helping me with this, without you I couldn't have made this." I said. Applause filled the room and I forced a smile. This is going to be a pain in the ass to edit. 
"Y/N!" I heard a voice that was all too familiar, and took a shaky breath before turning around to greet him.
"Dan! Hi!" Even though we said we were still close friends, we gave each other a few months away from one another, just so we could get better. The only time we talked was before I started writing the script, to ask him if it was okay.
He walked up to me and gave me a long hug. God I missed his hugs, his beautiful cologne, and him in general. 
"How was shooting?" He asked, letting go and taking a step back.
"It went really well. I just need to edit this sucker and it will be up. I'm nervous because I'm scared I might get attacked by some people."
"Well it's the best way to explain things to everyone. I've been bombarded by tweets, and comments asking about us." He forced a smile and shoved his hands in his pockets.
"Um, so why are you here?" I asked, awkwardly fiddling with my hair before crossing my arms.
"I was, um, passing by and I thought you wanted to have lunch? Just to catch up."
"Sure, I just need to help clean up. Give me like 30 minutes." I ran off and started helping the crew clean up the equipment, and take down the sets. After we finished I found Dan sitting on a couch near the entrance.
"Shall we?" He chuckled.
"We shall." I went to go reach for his hand, but retracted it quickly. You're not with him anymore, get over it. He is.
We headed towards a small café and talked about...everything. It was like everything was normal again, and we told each other every single thing that was going on. I knew deep down I shouldn't be doing this, I was still hurting and I could tell he was over the break up. Why couldn't I be over it?
"Yeah, hi. I'll have a (choose a drink)." I told the barista. He turned around and flashed me a smile. He was pretty cute.
"Coming right up." He began making my drink and I turned back to Dan.
"So how have you been?" I asked, moving to the side.
"Honestly not too good, but I'm feeling better now." Dan smiled at me, and got his order taken.
"(Drink you ordered)?" The cute barista called out my drink order, and walked to the counter to pick it up. "I left a little surprise on the back." He winked and went back to his job. I spun the cup around and noticed numbers on it.
"Did you just give me your number?" I asked laughing a bit.
"I can take it back if you want." He chuckled.
"Hm I don't know. Is this a normal thing you do?" I teased.
"Nope." He flashed me his charming smile again and turned back to making drinks. I looked over to Dan and he was staring at me.
"Dan, are you okay?"
"I'm fine."
We waited for Dan's drink to be done, and took our seats. We started talking, and I told him how the filming went. He told me random stories of him and Phil like he always did, and it went quiet for a few minutes.
"I really miss you Y/N." Dan broke the silence and stared at me.
"Dan I miss you too but you know what will happen. We've done this before and we just keep getting hurt in the end."
"Maybe we can work things out?"
"Look, I need to get this up tonight. I'll talk to you later okay?" I picked up my things and stared at Dan one last time. "I'm sorry. Maybe things will get better with time, but right now we should take a long break and figure out what we actually need okay?"
Dan looked down at his hands, then back up at me. He gave me one of his signature smiles where you could see his dimples. "Okay." He sounded sad at my response, but it's what has to happen.
I hauled a taxi back to my flat, and instantly started editing the film. As I was watching, and cutting things out I felt a bit sad that I didn't take Dan's offer. He finally told me he did miss me, so it was obvious we both still love each other. But we've been through this before and we need to take a break like I said.
I started crying the farther I got into editing. It still hurts. Watching those scenes made relive what actually happened, and reminded me of how painful the breakup actually was. It started as a fight. He was so absorbed in his work he barely paid any attention to me in weeks. I finally had enough so I snapped. Dan defended himself and we yelled at each other for so long. I finally broke. I fell onto the bed crying and Dan followed suit. We sat in complete silence for (what felt like) forever until I finally brought it up.
~Flashback~
"Dan, are you happy?" I looked up to him, his face was blurry due to all the tears in my eyes.
"Honestly, I'm not. I love you to bits, but...I don't think I can yell at you every night anymore." He let out a nervous chuckle.
"I think-" My voice broke, but I kept going. "We should take another break. But a longer one this time."
Dan sat in silence staring at the floor. A tear rolled down his cheek and he turned towards me. "I love you." His voice wavered. I knew he was trying to be strong but this was hard.
"I love you too." More tears escaped my eyes, but I grabbed his cheek and pulled him in for a last kiss. It lasted long, and there was a lot of emotions behind it. I pulled away, and wiped away all the tears. I got up and started packing up the things in our flat. I made my way towards the door, and said goodbye. That was it. 
~Flashback over~
I finished editing the video, and sent it to Dan just so I could get his opinions on it. I put down my phone and dragged my feet towards the washroom. I splashed water on my face, and did my normal night routine. I heard buzzing coming from my phone and looked at the Caller ID. Dan. I hesitated, wondering if I was able to handle hearing his voice after reliving such a terrible moment. But I ended up answering.
"Hello?"
"IT WAS PERFECT Y/N!" Dan yelled through the other line.
"Thank you." I laughed.
"Upload it RIGHT NOW."
"Alright, I'll text you okay? It was a long night I'd really like some rest."
"Okay bye. I lo-bye." Dan hung up. I started to upload the video, and fell asleep almost instantly when I got into bed.
I didn't know what to expect the next morning, but I was never prepared for anything like this.