I laid in my bed staring at the wall above me.Examining the patterns in the white paint.Red and John where out so I was alone.Alone with my thoughts.Why did he do all the things he did to me.All the names he would call me while he beat me in a corner.'ugly,'fat,'stupid' and I believed him.I still do.I rolled around trying to get comfortable to keep my mind off of the negative thoughts.Nothing was working.I shot up and out my head between my knees.'Leave me alone'i hate being alone with my thoughts.It was like being with someone that is always reminding you about bad times or giving you bad thoughts.Telling you to kill yourself or your nothing and ugly,fat.I hated it.'get out.'Yelling but then turned into quiet sobs.It felt like someone was yelling at me in my ear telling me to end it all or calling me names that my dad would say.Then the voices started to sound like my dad."worthless scum."it said."leave me alone"I yelled.I don't wanna be alone.I need somebody here with me.
