The Ashes She Left Behind.

|Meeting her|

Present:

I walked towards the edge of the same building I had been at 7 years ago. I chuckled as I remembered that day like the back of my hand and stood on the same edge of the building. The sun shined brightly making the whole sky light up. I had a message that this building was to be destroyed so I had to come back one last time. To the place where my life had changed.

Five years eh? It's the same date today twenty first October. I looked at the horizon, unable to control my tears anymore. Call me a cry baby for crying at the age of 21 but I really don't give two flying damns about it any more about what people call me anymore. All thanks to.. I chuckled at the fact I can't even say or better yet think of that beautiful name again. 

Hurts too much... 

Past: Narrator's point of view:

Adrian ran while his tears rolled down his now red cheeks thanks to the cold, wild wind piercing his skin. His sobs mixing with the pants and the loud footsteps of his banging against the hard road. His converse making the thud of his feet sloppy. He sniffed and wiped his nose with the long sleeve of his grey sweater. 

You are a disgrace!

Come on are you going to cry now?

It's all your fault! 

The same voices replaying again and again in his mind. The same voices that he wanted to forget. The mistakes he had made. It was all his fault every one was hurting. It was all his fault he died. Or so he thought. 

Flashback: 

Adrian walked in the rich looking lounge to see her mom crying. Then it clicked it was today 19th of that filthy month. October. He walked in front of her mom and saw that her face was pale and was in her hands as tears flowed out like a river. 

"Mom? I'm so sorry" He knelt down to get eye level to her as her eyes started stinging. He bit the inside of his cheek to control his self. 

"You are a disgrace!" Was all she said in her hiccups. Adrian yelped as his body jerked to the right making him crash on the floor because of the blow to his left cheek. He held his now buzzing with pain cheek and looked up to find his raging father accompanied by his sister and best friend. Elizabeth? Elizabeth or Lizzy as he liked to call her had been his best friend since Nick had... passed away. 

"L-lizzy?" He looked at the three fuming humans sending him daggers. 

"Adrian I... I hate you! You never knew did you?" Adrian's tears were now rolling down his cheek. "You do know that I had loved Nick until you!" She chuckled dryly, "Murdered him" venom dripped from every word of her.

Flashback end.

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Emotions going crazy in his mind. The mind which was always filled with artsy ideas was nowadays only filled with hate. Hate for his own self. 

"I'm so so sorry Nick this is all my fault" He ran more until he saw the same building every thing had happened 4 years ago. He stood there, his whole body jerking at every sob escaping his mouth. It was as if memory was repeating. The grey sky soon turned golden and then the giggles of Nick and his pure little self rung in his ears. As he turned around he saw the little balls of sunshine running past him and towards the stairs of the old, abandoned building. Windows broken and no paint only concrete. 

"Catch me if you can!" Adrian's 13 year old voice cheering up. Then the skin crawling scream of Nick and the loud thud. In a flicker the whole place was back to being the grey and cold place it was. I am hallucinating now!  He thought and continued with his run towards the stairs. His tears still streaming out like crazy. He entered into darkness in the door way and soon felt the stairs under his feet. He ran skipping one or even two steps at a time. He reached a metal red door. He pushed it open to be welcomed by the cold air stabbing him in the face. 

"I am done" He walked towards the edge. The same roof edge from where Nick had fallen. With one step he was on the edge standing. One step and every misery would end. One step and every thing would be okay. He gave out a shaky breath as he looked down at the floor. The Earth was now 16 floors down. Dizziness hit him as he looked down and soon the smell of smoke brushed past him. 

"What do you think you're doing?" A raspy female voice sounded from behind him making him scream. He turned his head around to be met by a beautiful woman. Her brown hair was in a pixie cut and had biggest brown eyes he had seen. She sat there leaning against the wall of the stair case shed with her legs straightened in front of her. She wore ripped black tights, a jeans jacket on a grey hoodie. She had a lighted cigarette dangling from her mouth as she spoke with an emotionless face. 

"I-I.. uh none of your business!" He hissed and turned back towards the height. He heard faint foot steps behind him. 

"Uh you'll probably break your spine and it's going to take about 10 minutes for you to bleed to death" This time the same raspy voice was from his right and alot near. He turned to see the girl resting on her elbows on the wall beside him with her cigarette in her index and middle finger. 

"How do you know?" The girl looked up at him. She looked older then Adrian about 20 years old while Adrian was only 17. 

"Welp let's try shall we?" She took a long intake of the cigarette and let out grey stingy smoke. After throwing the cigarette away she swung her leg up and now was standing on the edge with Adrian. 

"What are you crazy?" Adrian hissed at her who chuckled dryly. 

"Says the one who was about to do the same" With that she jumped off onto the safe side and turned towards Adrian to come off too. 

"No" He snapped and turned his head back to the now dizzy height and closed his eyes only t feel his body get yanked backwards and land on cold, hard floor with a loud thud. 

"What the F-" He cursed and opened his eyes to see the girl standing near her. She looked upside down as Adrian laid on the floor. She cupped her mouth with her hands only to uncup and show a lighted cigarette in her mouth again. She took a puff and pulled Adrian up.

"Why did you do that?!" He fumed up and dusted himself. 

"See that hurt right? Imagine that pain multiplied by thousand because falling off of there?" She pointed at the edge and whistled, "Has to hurt bad" She took another puff from that killing stuff in her mouth and went back to sit by the wall. 

"So what made you feel like you had to jump and die?" This made Adrian snap back into reality and felt the tears forming up in his eyes. He stared at the girl in amusement and walked over to sit by her. 

"Everything. My life, my parents..." He paused as his voice broke, "My self" with this he let the tears flow and hugged his knees to his chest. 

"Kid I ain't any tumblr person to tell you the 'don't give up shit' but all I know is that you're a dork" She took another puff as Adrian felt the anger building up in him. He shook lightly from anger.

"I AM NOT A DORK! And what makes you think that HUH?! You know nothing about me! Way to make a crying person feel better!" He spat out and was surprised to see the girl not even flinching under his out burst. 

"First of all I don't do stuff like making feel better and second I have all day then maybe I can know enough about you to call you a dork eh?" She took a puff and threw the cigarette away while winking at Adrian only to get another cigarette from her pocket. 

"I.." He thought for a while. She was a stranger to her. But she had saved him. He sighed loudly and started. "It is one messed up and long story" 

"I've got time"