You and Me

Two

* Skylar's POV *

TWO MONTHS OF TESTING, IT TOOK.

why? because they say they actually found something.

And I'm not gonna lie to you, Im scared as hell. i don't want to have people feel sorry for me anymore. I don't want to stay in a room all day and do nothing but sleep and wait. Wait for my time to go.

It's December 20, five days before Christmas. Four days before Louis birthday, and he has to know that his best friend might die sooner than him.

I just want to cry. I didn't mean to have everyone suffer because of me.

My parents visit every other day with my little brother, and I could see they don't want to see their little girl like this. The only reason I'm staying strong is for my brother.

Niall hasn't been eating as much as he should because hes nervous for me.

Harry is constantly sitting and writing in his Journal, barely speaking to anyone anymore.

Louis isn't as fun and cheerful as usual. And I know it's my fault.

Zayn, well, I barely see him anymore. And it seems like every time he visits, he smells like cigarettes. I really hope he isn't smoking.

Liam and Danielle. They never missed a visiting hour. They have been here for me since the first day. They're together now, he asked her right in front of me for her to be his girlfriend. It was the cutest thing ever.

Both their eyes had something I haven't seen in years. It was love.

The doctor says that there's gonna be one more week of testing to diagnose exactly what I have.

I haven't sang since I started it all. It sucks to not be able to use your voice for this long. But I got a couple songs down in my notebook! Harry bought it for me as a 'get well soon' gift the first week I was in the hospital.

It's really helpful. when I'm not allowed to speak some days, when I have to let it all out, and even when I'm just bored.

so far I have written 13 songs, and the one that the boys heard. so, 14 songs.

Speaking of the boys, I still haven't gotten them something for Christmas!!! But how could I, I haven't even stepped outside in about two months.

My thoughts were cut off by the nurse I saw the night I was suffocating. Adam, his name was? After two months, I still don't have it down, but we got real close over the time period. I think we know each other more than enough to say we're friends.

"How are youu?? Everything alright, babe?" He asked, a single flower in his hand.

I answered him with two thumbs up and he put the flower in my hair. But it didn't stay there for long, cause I took it, smelled it, and finally smiled today. The flower was in a jar with the rest of them. there's about 60 in there, just from Adam.

"Um, Adam, what should I get the boys for Christmas?" I ask after we do the daily checkup.

"Well, there's not really much because they have almost anything they want. The only thing they're possibly missing is love. So, that's a hard one."

"I really can't give them something intangible, and I don't want to give anyone my love right now. I'm not ready yet." I whisper the last part.

He engulfs me in a hug, and I know he means what he says; "Honey, I don't think any of us are ready when it comes to love. I-I wasn't.. but yeah, all you could really do is let yourself fall. There's really no way you're going to know exactly when to put the parachute on before you fall. So you let the wind blow you to your lover. " he said, looking into my eyes the whole time, and I could feel it.

He cares too.

**Liam's POV**

"GUYS!!" I scream over the boys, who were panicking. They all stopped and looked at me.

"We'll get something for her after the visit, now lets go, get ready. Visiting hours are almost over!!" and with that, they ran upstairs to change and came back within 3 minutes.

I really am 'Daddy Direction', taking care of 4 babies. But they're not babies.

-at the hospital with Sky-

"Do you wanna get some food, er... " Niall tried, and I looked at him amused. He was trying weyhey too hard.

(((see what I did there xD)))

they were all trying to get her out of bed and happy again. Truth is, she won't be happy until her release day.

"Sure" she said, and it caught me by surprise. I looked up from my phone, and I saw her getting up, Niall helping her. The other boys went to find her a Christmas gift in the gift Shoppe downstairs.

I stood here with Niall so I make sure nothing goes on.

She got a hold of Niall's arm and he held onto her like she would shatter if she fell. It was kinda cute, I was starting to think maybe he was the one for her.

So I let them go alone, I trust him.

*Niall's POV*

I held onto her like she was the most priceless jewel in the world. To me, she is, though. One slip and she would break, I just knew it.

We walked down to the caf slowly and I saw about twenty or so girls by the lobby. I rushed Sky and she knew exactly why.

We talked, and we ate as much as we could. I paid for everything, of course. I would never let a girl pay for our date or... hang out.

We talked about jewels and jewelry and how it would make a good gift for a special person.

Suddenly it hit me, an idea on what to get her for Christmas, and I was eager to get to the boys. I kind of looked uncomfortable, at the edge of my seat, waiting for her to finish eating. Damn, did she eat a lot. That's good, though. she needs to eat. I would definitely not want someone that starves them self to get skinny. Its just not worth hurting to look like everyone else, ya know?

"Umm, some place you gotta be, Nialler?" she asked me, and I stopped thinking about all the girls that are insecure out there.

"No, no love, keep eating. I'm fine." I lied. What I really wanted to do was kiss her goodbye and tell the boys my gift idea!

To kiss those lips.

But that would never happen, right?