The Everyday Life of Yesterday

Chapter Five: Yesterday

Hi, I'm a person you're beginning to remember from a class you're starting to recall. Yesterday we took our finals. You sat behind me in our math class. Since it was testing day, we couldn't interact with each other.

You were so close. Had things been different, I could've talked to you. You were just behind me, and I couldn't do anything. I was so close to being able to talk to you.

Please, please give me hope.

Yesterday we began our sophomore year. Like a brick to the face, I was overwhelmed with work. It felt like instant regret, and as I continued to work I disappeared from the face of the student body. Sometimes I would see you in the distance. Perfect in my eyes as ever.

Something always held me back from introducing myself at the time. Perhaps it was just the pressure of being in high school. Maybe it was the school work that was holding me back. Whatever it was, I was always caught in its grasp and I never introduced myself.

Yesterday, my mother got remarried. My step-father was an interesting character. We got along well, but I never grew close to him. It wasn't hatred that I felt, but fear that I might lose another parent.

Yesterday, Summer Break started. I watched you leave the school from the car I was in. A sigh escaped my parted lips as my thoughts accumulated into some dark cloud looming over my hopes and dreams. Can I make it?

The school soon disappeared from my view and with it was the students. Why was it so difficult for me to interact with others? Summer Break was never fun for me. Alone for two whole months. No calls. No texts. No friends. It's just me and my family.

Why can't I make friends?

Yesterday was the second semster of junior year. It was even worse than being sophomore. Just a year ago, I didn't have to worry about letters of reccomendation, or getting a job. Now, it's nothing but school work and colleges. Four years seemed like so much back then.

Yesterday we stood side-by-side in the football field. The transition from elementary to middle school, and middle school to high school. Standing before a crowd with the feeling of pride, ready to further your education and take on bigger challenges. That's what I thought graduation would be like. Instead, I feel scared. I don't feel ready.

As I did during the Bridging Ceremony, I glanced towards you. There was some uncertainty in your eyes, but everything about you still seemed perfect. My gaze dropped to the turf below me.

Yesterday, we parted.