Blackout (Louis Tomlinson fanfiction)

Shave it or lose it.

*one week later

Louis POV

   I don't want her to die on me. That is my biggest fear. I don't want to lose the love of my life. I'm honestly terrified. I can't imagine my life without her. She means everything to me. I would give up everything I have to be with her.

   She isn't just my girlfriend. She is my best friend, my other half, my soulmate. She is my life. I can't lose her. I know she wants me to be strong for her but I can't help but be upset, angry, worried, terrified, all at the same time.

   When the doctor told her that her hair would start coming out she looked horrified. The doctor told Selena that she had two options with it. Shave it our gradually lose it. She hadn't decided what to do yet. She didn't want to lose her hair but she knew it was happening either way. Just a few seconds after I thought that she walked back in the room.

"Can we talk?" She asked quietly. I nodded but I was worried. Is she going to break up with me? That was the main thing I kept asking myself.

"Whatcha want too talk about?" I asked.

"It's nothing bad...I just wanted your opinion." She sat next to

"On what?" I asked still confused.

"Shaving my head or not." She answered quietly.

"Well. I'll tell you the truth. If I were I'm your position I would shave my hair. I wouldn't want to keep losing it slowly. But that is just my opinion." I answered rubbing her back. She smiled at me.

"That's all I needed to hear." She stood up and began to walk out of our room.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"To take after my idol Talia. (r.i.p Talia Joy Castellano <3) I'm going to try and make bald beautiful." She answered confidently before walking it of the room.

   I was confused. Who is Talia? I quickly grabbed my laptop. I typed in 'Talia cancer' going something would pop up.

It did. There where videos of her. She is a makeup guru. She looks about twelve. She has neuroblastoma and leukemia. Then one article caught my eye.

'Talia Joy Castellano died July 16 2013'

   My heart sank. She was so young though. She is dead. I feel so bad for her family. They must miss her. I guess I'll watch some of her videos. I clicked on the first one I saw.

$20 Makeup Challenge

   That is the title. I smiled when I saw her. She was a little girl. She was happy, crazy, and full of life. This is how I want Selena to feel when she is going through cancer. I want to find out what makes her feel like that.

   I laughed as I watched Talia start putting clown makeup on. She finally put it on normal and it looked great. She is amazing at doing makeup. I wonder what Selena likes doing. The video ended just as Selena walked in smiling.

   I looked up at her and realized she did it. She shaved her head. A huge grin spread across my face. I moved my laptop. I stood up and walked to her. She looked up at me nervous. I touched her head still smiling.

"What do you think?" She asked. I looked into her eyes.

"I think you look beautiful." She smiled again.

"You really like it?" She asked quietly. She walked over to look in the mirror again. I wrapped my arms around her waist.

"I love it." I told her. She turned and wrapped her arms around me. We stood there for a while just hugging. She pulled away from me. She sat down on the bed taking me with her. She looked up at me.