The Dark Always Follows

Chapter One: Summer Ends And School Begins

My name is Jen. I'm not your typical kind of girl thats charming, sporty, and outgoing. I'm the complete opposite I have big blues eyes with glasses, red hair, small nose with freckles, and crooked teeth with braces. My personality is not really that interesting either I'm not a nerd or neither am I popular so I don't fall in anywhere I can think of. I'm very cautious about everything I can't speak a full sentence without stuttering or I can't sit still without moving. Just Let me tell you this I have this anxiety disorder. That makes me think of weird and messed up things that are too unfamiliar to explain. I'm failing school and I'm failing life as well. That's all you need to know about me.

While I'm walking on the beach alone of course I thought to myself. Why do I have to go to school in the first place it's so stupid every year. Especially the popular girls that every guy gets turned on by them. I hate school and it hates me too. The worst part of it is that I used to have a best friend, Lily that I would tell everything to I mean everything like every secret, every embarrassing moment and of course every crush but I lost her 2 months ago. What I mean by lost her is that she noticed I was a boring and depressing person so she started to make fun of me like the popular girls did. After all that she told every single person at school all my secrets, all my embarrassing moments and the worst of all is my crush I felt so embarrassed that day because every single person knew everything and the guy Ethan felt embarrassed too because why would you want a creepy person liking you. They started calling me names like skank, pig, and Satan's Child.

The Summer was even worse I was so lonely. I barely left my room and I was too busy drawing how nice it would be if people actually l acknowledged me. I feel sorry for mom we lost our dad over 6 months ago to cancer. Now my mom is a widow and she's in depression. Sometimes I have to help her get out of bed in the morning and it's hard for me to because I have to deal with my anxiety disorder as well or other times I have to sleep in the same bed as her because she feels lonely and it's weird for me because I don't like being touched or being too close to someone for too long at the same time so some times I just stay awake and flinch every time she moves.

The night passes and luckily that time I didn't have to sleep in the same bed as mom. The morning is here and it's my first day of being a senior. Thank god it's the last year of high school. I don't want to put up with people anymore especially my classmates. So as I got ready I heard a thump from my mom's bedroom. As I quickly ran I heard my mom say something for the first time in months I could barely understand what she had said, but I was so happy that she had said something. When I got to my mom's room I didn't see her anywhere. I looked everywhere and then I looked under the bed I was scared because under there is really cramped up and it barely has an escape you can fit in to get out. There she was under the bed I didn't get her out because I didn't want to touch her I hate touching people that are in cramped up spaces. So I just told her to get out of there or I was going to be late to school. I didn't really care about school in the first place, but my mom did so she got out quickly.

We got dressed and I was ready for school. I didn't really wear anything pretty. I just wore a hoodie with some baggy jeans. I wear hoodies a lot because it has a hood I can block my face from people, so they wouldn't stare at me. When people stare at me in the hallway that's the worst because I start shaking and people start laughing. So we get into the car and drove to school. Me and my mom don't talk at all to each other because of my anxiety disorder and because of her depression. So all of our car rides are usually complete and sudden silence.

We got to school right when I get out of the car people start laughing with their groups of friends. As they walk by they will say "freaks" and "There's Satan with his child". They tease my mom too and that's the worst I sometimes cry when they say that especially to my mom. As I start walking to the entrance people just completely stop and stare while I'm shaking. I try to put my hood on but that doesn't help. I start walking in the building and these group of girls surround me and I start shaking even more. And they just get closer and closer and closer. I start shaking more and more and my legs started to get wobbly as I have told you I hate tiny spaces and cramped up spaces and they knew that. As I look around at the group of girls. I notice someone familiar Lily. I see her just nonstop laughing with the other girls. Tears start running down my face. I tried to hold back the tears but that didn't work. When they saw me crying they start laughing even harder then this one girl came up behind me pushed me to the ground and I landed on my face first. As I got up blood starts dripping on my hand as my nose was bleeding, but the only thing I was thinking about was what kind of best friend would betray her bestie like that and spread all her secrets and thoughts. When they noticed my nose they ran way like they have seen a ghost or something.

After all that I ran to the school's bathroom. I look in the mirror and I start sobbing and shaking. Then someone came in it was a teacher Mrs. Smith she teaches English. "What's wrong sweetie" said Mrs. Smith. I didn't want to be a snitch because basically the whole world know snitches get stitches. I didn't want to to take that chance. " No..th..in..g" I said while I stuttered. Then I quickly ran out so I wouldn't get asked anymore questions.

I walked up to my locker and I opened it. While I was unpacking. Out of nowhere someone banged my locker twice. I flinched back in fear and I hit some guy behind me. "WATCH IT" the guy yelled. "I..m so..rry" I said. "Learn how to speak then say sorry you piece of " he said. He pushes me off him and I feel to the ground and hit my head on the lockers so hard that everything around me went black.