That night i felt the mate bond weaken and die as Drake marked Crystal as the new luna and his beloved mate.
i sat on the floor of the attic for hours with silent tears streaming down my face, i didn't think they would ever stop, but they did, they stopped and with them i felt my life crashing down. i saw my whole life being played in my mind like a movie i saw the birthdays with presents i saw the love my pack had for me i saw the pride in my daddy's eyes when i beat the boys in a race, i saw my family, i saw drake when he bought me chocolates and flowers after i fell of my bike i saw it all and in a moment i saw it all change i tried to stop it i really did but it came at me like a tide, the deaths of my loved ones the kicks and hits from my pack i felt them all once again i saw all the hate and disgust they held for me now i heard the words "murderer" being thrown at me and with that i screamed and sobbed till i couldn't breathe i clawed at my own chest to try to stop my heart from hurting and then it all stopped.
i woke up in the pack hospital alone, i looked down at my body and saw my neck and chest had bandages all over them i remembered everything last night but i no longer felt the pain or betrayal i just felt empty and tired so so tired, everything i ever wished for was gone, i always hoped they would forgive me but i realised that it would never happen that i would never be loved here. I realised that i didn't want to survive as i am, i wanted to live i wanted to be free i wanted to become the person that my parents wanted me to be i knew that the only way for me to heal and do this is if i leave.
I walked up the stairs to my room and took anything of any meaning to me like the couple of photos i manages to save and a few clothes and put it in my bag it wasn't much but it was all i had with that i walked downstairs into the living room and saw all the people that had made my life hell i looked at my brother first and said " i'm so sorry that you lost your parents but i lost them too, you weren't the only one in pain i've had to live with the memory of watching them die for years, i needed someone to hold me and tell me that it's gonna get better that one day the nightmares will stop and once upon a time you promised me that you'd always be there for me no matter what but you broke that promise that day you only lost your parents but i lost everything" i now looked at all of them with overwhelming tears in my eyes and said " i not only lost my parents and the luna i lost my whole pack, my brother and myself and no matter how much i tried i haven't been able to regain any of those things and i know you all hate me yous have the right to and im finishes asking and begging for your forgiveness because i don't need it anymore all i need is to forgive myself for being a child and i think i can" with that i looked Drake straight in the eyes and i saw him look at me with remorse but it was too late for that i knew that and i think so did he i said the words that changed me forever " I accept your rejection and im leaving this pack" with that i felt the pack link break and i felt free i turned around and walked out the door with the first real smile on my face in years.
