I need you rn

March 2016

03.03.2016:
I guess this is it. I guess I'm not a constant in his life. What? I was never a problem or some shit that. I'd wish I didn't believe anybody and everything people say.

03.04.2016:
I just wonder if he still thinks of me. He looks at me but that's it. I just can't do this anymore. I want him back. How can I get him back. I already told him I hated him. I don't know what to do. I just wish everything was the way the were before I met you.

03.15.2016:
The space between insane and insecure. I don't know if to try and talk to him again or just let him go. I know I...idk. I want closure, I'm starting to move on. I just like loved the feeling of being in love. I love the way a guy can make you feel like you're the only one in the world that matters. I love the way my tiny hand would fit in his big hand. I love the way sparks fly whenever I see my man. I love that I can just be myself around him and not give a care in the world. I love when he'll whisper sweet things in my ear and make me feel beautiful. I know I can get someone better but right now I want my future man to be here. Wait at the bus stop with me and be with me. Surprise me with a bear or a cupcake or even a letter about how much he loves me. I want him to take me on unexpected dates and go everywhere with him. When I have a bad day he'll cheer me up. When I sleepover his house, we'll watch a scary movie and I'll bury my face into his chest when scary scenes come up. I want to text and call him everyday talking about random things. I wish that would happen right now, but life goes in the way. My man will come soon, I can feel it.

03.20.2016:
I love you boo...