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Chapter 1

A/N: Hello! Thank you for choosing to read my first fiction. This story consist of boy x boy, yaoi, violence and rape. Any form of violence and self harm is not encourage, it is only a part of this story. I hope you enjoy the first chapter and eager to wait for the next one. Please be active and like and comment if you found any flaws.

cheers, Nyna

Chapter 1

Ethan

My laptop was the only thing she left me with. Before Mom abandoned me for her new family, says her new husband wouldn't want a teen in the house. Probably because he already have two kids. How wants responsibilities? Me neither.

So you guys would be wondering, -insert dramatic voice, 'Oh who could Ethan, a 15 years old, possibly live with?'

Well let me tell you, I'm currently living with that Asshole, who smashed my one and only, oh ever so precious laptop. Who? That damn guy, my step dad. I wouldn't call him dad even if I were paid to. Seriously, who would call him that? He doesn't even work. I had to support myself. Mom left me with him and went to here new life but she would send some money to the house every month. Which more than 50% used by him.

And if I have two words to say to him, it'd be Fuck you.

Right after barging into my final line of defense, which the stupid me forgotten to locked, he just smashed my laptop. With a baseball bat. A BASEBALL BAT! Where the hell did he get that? He was swaying when he entered so I'd say he's drunk. He probably came back from clubbing or god knows where. Strip club maybe.

I hate it so much when he's drunk. He'd do the most disgusting, most abusive and most despicable thing to either me or an object in this house. Whatever you think of, he'd done it, or tried.

Once, he tried to kill me. Threw glass plates and bowls at me. But I dodged it. And cleaned the mess up. But that, my friends, is a story for another day.

Anyways, I'm not here to talk about my laptop and what not. So what happen a few weeks back was that I came across this website. A chatting site where they allow you to chat with strangers. You can't do anything other than that since they allow you to chat anonymously, if you need someone to talk to. So, I thought, that

maybe through this, I can finally let out all my worries, thoughts or just talk to someone, make friends.

I didn't know what I clicked but it brought me into a chat-room.

Pizzzaaa entered the chatroom

DarkLord69 entered the chatroom

It says. i hover my cursor over the name of the other user and a little box came up, showing a picture of some cute dude and his bio saying, "I am your father". I'm not good at starting conversations so I waited for the other party to make the first move.

DarkLord69: asl?

Pizzzaaa: 15, eastborne

DarkLord69: okay, im frm eastborne too. Sex?

Pizzzaaa: excuse me?

DarkLord69: sex as in asl, age sex location.

Pizzzaaa: i know what it stands for just that im not here to hv sex.

DarkLord69: um no? Sex as in gender. Lmao

Pizzzaaa: oh lol. Boy. You?

DarkLord69 left the chatroom

So that was officially my first experience using that site. Not that I'm hurt or anything, with someone just leaving like that. I was just confused. Maybe he had to go in a rush. Yeah.

But then, the subsequent conversations i had ended the same way it did the first time.

Gender? Boy. Left. Gender? Boy. Left. Gender? Boy. Left. I soon realized that every time I revealed my gender, most of the users I spoke to just leave the chat-room without a word.

And another thing was that all of them were guys too. I hardly ever come across a female.

Laying down all possibilities, I concluded that all the users I spoke to are looking for a girl to talk to but have yet to realize that there are actually more dudes using this sites than the girls, considering that this site just got released.

I don't know if I was desperate or maybe just curious but I went to the settings and changed my profile picture to something a girl would like. A puppy or kitten? Girls like animals right?

I finally decided that my profile picture would be picture of a puppy and entered a chat-room.

A47 entered the chatroom

Pizzzaaa entered the chatroom

I was so eager to try out my new tactic, hoping that it would work. So I started the conversation first.

Pizzzaaa: Hi there, asl?

A47: Hello, im in highschool so you'd figure out my age. Im a guy and im from appleby. Cute profile pic you got there.

Pizzzaaa: appleby? Thts 2hrs away from eastborne right? and thx

A47: yup. So im guessing youre frm eastborne?

Pizzzaaa: yup thts right. Im 15 btw. And a girl :)

A47: cool. You can call me A47. Wat should i call you?

I thought for awhile. Can't believe its so easy to lie. Well, of course. Its the internet we're talking about. Besides, he complimented on how cute my profile pic is. That'll help him prove I'm a girl right? I've got to be more convincing.

Pizzzaaa: em. Call me emily :)

And that was the birth of our relationship. It has been 3 to 4 months already and I'd say we've gotten pretty close. Every time he's online, I'd be there to listen to him rant about his life. It felt kinda good to know that someone has a story to tell and they're depending on you. But there was this one time, he asked me how's life. I had trouble answering that. Keep in mind that I've been lying about all of me. So I told another lie, "Everything's great".

However, I thought back. The reason I chose to use this site was to get loads of my chest and being 'emily' isn't doing anything.

It's okay. I can be satisfied with this.

A47: Are you sure everything's fine?

My eyes sting as those words causes memories of past events flooded my mind. I swallowed back the burden.

Truth is school was hell. Being thrown with hatred and disgusted looks kills you slowly inside. I'm still recovering and it's gonna take a lot of time with people giving me looks that'll make me remember.

I was about to reply but that's when Asshole came in with a baseball bat.

There goes my escape from reality. Pfft, 'escape from reality'. I can't even be myself there.