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Chapter 2

Max

My life isn't anything interesting. At least that is for me. Before I tell you my story, story of the real me, let me introduce myself. I'm Max. Max Jonatthan. I'm 15 and I'm gay. Well that was straight forward. Did that shock you?

If you were wondering, I haven't come out to my parents. To anyone actually. I kept it a secret.

When I realised my sexual preference? I'm not sure. But what I remember was that when I was young, let's say 5, I was out for family bonding at the beach. And you know, being 5, you have to always hold your mother's hands so that you won't get lost. Yep. There I was being dragged around. Not far from where I was, two boys, teens I guess, sitting under the shades of an umbrella. I just looked at them as I walked and a few moments later, they kissed. And it seems like I'm the only one who saw that.

Ever since then, I couldn't see girls attractive. I don't know why but it might be the cause of that accident.

So, I bet you all think that my life must have sucked. Well, I don't know what to say. I guess it does for me. How I must smile at people when I don't want to and how I have to kept the real me a secret. Do you understand? As far as I know, my parents don't know me too. But they are not the worse parents anyone could have. They are awesome actually. I'm pretty proud to have them. And I guess they too, are proud to have me, who does well in academics and sports. But thats one problem. They are too proud to have me that I don't wish to disappoint them with the real me they don't know.

And in school, I am disliked by some. It's natural. If you know what I mean. Good grades, good in sports. You are bound to have haters y'know. I'll tell you what I'm like in school, I'm from Harvest High. You know what year I am. I'm 15. People called me carefree, kind, polite, outgoing and all that good stuff but I'm not. It's tiring. Why do I continue doing it when I don't like it? It's simple. I'm just doing so for my family's name. High expectations from parents.

It's better to do as they say and act nice then do the opposite cause, think about it, you'll just cause trouble. It 's annoying. Also, when I live up to their expectations like scoring As for my tests, I'll get prizes. Usually the prizes I'll get ain't very grand. I'll get to go out on the weekend but *laughs* not like I have friends to hangout with. That's troublesome so I'll just treat it as a day off from pretending to be "me".