These past few days :

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by happs24

by happs24

So hi guys again its me,

So monday went not that well cause remember that we were supposed to have a track and field test and I guess my nerves of failing and doing really bad got to me,I felt really sick and started puking. later I fainted, and the school wanted me to go home but I managed to get through the day. Tuesday was just a regular day and nothing really special happened, btw I still have that crush on Jack and even though he does not like me back cause we dont talk anymore, I still like him. Today was ok, but I got in a mini feud with my friend. It was actually my fault for lashing out at her, its just that having a crush is not fun especailly on Jack. Today our class had a bakesale and Jack actually spoke to me which I was happy about but I dont know if I should be happy about what we spoke about. So what happened was that when I was helping to set upp for the bake sale Jack came to me and asked if I could give him something for free ( btw, nothing was for free , even our own class had to pay if we wanted to buy something. So in that way we would raise more money ) I didnt really reply cause my friend did so. During the bakesale I could see that he wanted to buy something or at least it seemed so and inside my heart I was more than willing to give him something for free, but then I talked to my friends and I realised maybe because he knows I like him, he would ask me and I would do it for him.

Idk if I made the wright decision ?

Btw theres this secret I have been keeping this huge secret and I cant risk anyone finding out because I dont know what will happen, and I feel that some of my friends are on to it.

Tommorow I am gonna give 5 obvious signs to Jack that I like him and if he still is distant I think I will get over my crush on him then. Cause at this stage its really annoying having a crush on him. So i decided to try and imagine if I was ever together with Jack ( btw thats never gonnna happen ) what would change, to be honest he would a bit friendly towards be and we would talk occasionaly but else would change ?

Today one of my friends told me that the day I told jack I liked him when I turned my back against him and was walking, he was mocking me and I guess I kinda needed to hear that, I know it sounds weird but I have been trying to get over him and if I see him doing things I dont agree with or like I will lose interest in him. I feel like even by writing a part of my crush on him has left. Dont get me wrong I still like him but not as much as before, just talking to Anna today was kind of frustating but I needed to hear what she said, guess i was soo carried away with Jack I have been acting all weird and I need to get over this crush on him.

Jack has clearly moved on in life and maybe its time i do so too, i am ready to do almost anything if that means i can rid off this crush.

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