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                                      Audrey Jane

friday came fast, after the day at the pizza shop i never saw the boys, but we constantly texted, weather it was James phone or Bradley's they were texting and calling me.

i was packing my things for US tomorrow, i had fixed everything i needed and even got new lense for my cameras over the week, i also got the new gopro everyone has been crying about and it was worth my money, i would sure use this alot.

along with that, i got memory cards and battery packs, and as of now all my money was gone. well not really gone but compared to the money i had then it was around 8 grand, and i did not want to spend that i needed to save it incase of emergency.

i heard the front door open and i was sure it was my dad, and we wouldn't even greet me but his daughter Rachel, for some reason over the years i had been the most insignificant Jane in this house hold, my parents ignores me most of the time and pretends like i dont belong and that im a mistake.

i had never had the talk with them, why? because they dont give me time, not when they have Rachel to flaunt to half of UK, she was a model, and i was a photographer ironic right?

she was always the perfect daughter even if she fails half of what she takes, she even dropped out of collage to be a model, while i persued collage, just for assurance.

i walk down stairs mentally preparing my speech, i enter the room seeing them happily eating together, see this wasnt knew they would always eat as a family and i would eat when they were asleep. all the speech i prepared went down the drain once their eyes hit me. "im leaving" i blurt "what?" my mum said. "im leaving for US tomorrow, i got a job and im gonna tour with this band" i said. "why didn't you tell us?" dad asked. this made my blood boil, now they care? or maybe they only did because they can get rid of me soon? "because im nineteen and why would you care?" i flatly asked. "because youre our daughter-" i cut mum off 

"doesnt seem like it"

this made her drop her for on the table and stand up "what has gotyen in to you?!" she raises her voice. "want to know?!" i raise my voice. 

"whats in to me is that you not caring, not even dad, not even Rachel, and ever since she came i was just another person to yoy its like im not your own mother. it like im just a girl that will magically disappear, its always been Rachel! oh did you guys know? Harvard mailed me! they accepted me! but wheee was it? it was in the pile of the mail to be thrown out! i didnt get the chance to study in harvard because you wouldnt care! and did you know that year when i toured with Selena around UK? No! why? Because you were with Rachel in New York because of NY fashion week! And did you guys know?! i graduated last month and no one was there! i gave you guys the invitation and no one fucking came!" i scream. i was crying by this time and they wouldnt look me in the eye. "so dont fucking ask me what my problem is because so far? my whole life has been a pr-"

"youre a walking reminder of him!" my mum exploded "youre a rape baby and i should've got rid of you when i could!" she said looking me in the eyes. meaning that she meant it.

"why didn't you?" i asked her. the room feel silent.

"why didnt you?! fuck it!" i said punching the counter top. hearing them gasp, my mum held my arm but i shrugged her off,

"honey- i-" she said

i couldn't careless about my hands what was hurting was my heart

"ill make it easier for all of you. ill be leaving and you wouldn't hear from me. this is the last time you will see me remember this day." i stare at them, they looked at me with scared gazes "no- Audrey lets get you cl-" i cut of Rachel. "No! let me  make it easier for all of you since you didnt have the chance to get rid of me Abby" i didnt dare to call her mum after what she screamed at my face. i run to my room grabbing my duffle bad two suite case and my back pack.

i went down stairs seeing them by the end of it i stormed past them and went straight tk the door.  "lets talk about this Audrey" my mum cried. i look back at them looked at them my mum was crying so was Rachel my dad kept the straight face but you know he wanted to cry. 

as if.

"you are dead to me" i snap leaving all at once i didnt cry while i did this but when i walkedto the end of the street waiting for someone to run after me i realize that they didnt care. they never would care. if tjeir dead to me. im probably dead to them too. and it had never changed

i called James since i was close with him more than the three, but he didnt answer. i called Joe and it went straight to voicemail i tried caling Brad but he didnt pick up, i called Connor and the line was busy. I had to leave but i didnt have friends to call, this made me cry more leaving my cheeks wet and people passing a girl crying on the crub with four bags beside her.

my last resort was Tristan and i needed to get out of here. so i called him.

it rang two rings, "Audrey?" he said. i sob, "tris-" he cuts me off "where are you Audrey? why are you crying? are you okay?" he said worriedly. "im in Jameson street and ill tell you later can you please pick me up" i cry, "im gonna go there, please dont leave," he said. "do you want me to stay on the phone?" he asked. "no its okay i dont want to be much of a burden" i said sniffing his voice was enough to keeo me sane

"its okay, ill be on the phone with you," he said.

he was here, after occasional "are you there?" or "are you okay?" and "im gonna pass a McDonald's do you want anything?" he was here

he came rushing out the car and pulling me close. "what happened to you?" he asked "ive just been disowned by my family lets say that" i told him keeping myself in his arms. "youre okay" he said kissing the top of my head.

he let go of me and got my suite case as i got my duffel bag and back pack we stff the things in the car and enter it as soon as it was done.

"im sorry for bringing you to my mess" i told him. "its okay." he said. "what happened to youre hand" he said taking it with his free hand examining it. "i punched the counter" i sigh as i put it back on my lap.

we made it to his flat ater a quiet  car ride with him it was comforting to be with him i felt safe.

he turned on the heater and lead me to the guest room. "go in the bathroom" he said pointing to the bathroom down the hall. i walked there and sat by the sink. he entered soon with a medical kit in his arms and his hair pushed back with a binnie,

he took my hand and started dabbing with cloth and water. i hiss in pain as he accidentally hit the wound.

"sorry" he said, he continued to put medicine on my hand until he wrapped it in bandage, he gently put it on my lap and helped me down,

no words were spoken by the both of us and i knew he was waiting for me to explain, but i couldn't not to a rockstar that has everything and my family decides to disown you. i didnt want him knowing about my excuse of a life.

"i cant tell you now Tris, im not ready" i told him. he nodded, "i understand Aud, its okay, you're okay" he said as i sat in my bed, "can you leave first ill just change" i told him "yeah okay call me if you're done" he said. i nod, i quickly changed in to my sleeping fluffy shorts and a loose big hoodie

"Tris?" i called out. "you're fast" he said. it was around eight pm it was early but i felt tired. "are you okay now?" he said. "i still feel empty inside but ill be okay" i told him as he sat down next to me "youre gonna be okay" he said.

"Tris.. i kmow i ask for a lot.. but can you sleep here? i dont want to sleep alone after what happened" i told him, he lookedat me as if it was the first fime a girl asked him to sleep with him —not in that way-

"yeah, ill sleep on the floor" he said. but i catched his wrist "sleep next to me. its okay" i told him.

we both went under the duvet his arms instantly found my waist and before you know it we were cuddling. "Thank you" i told him "for what princess?" he asks. "for everything" i told him letting him pass for calling me princess. "its nothing." he said as kissed my forehead.

"i got you princess, you have me"

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