My feelings, thoughts and, emotions are weird. The way I express my feelings is different. I hate surprises. No matter what the surprise is. One time when I was in 4th grade my parents surprised us. They took us to Disney world. I cried the whole trip because I didn't know how to express my feelings. I was upset about missing my choir contest and I stayed misrubel the whole trip. I ruin things for other easily because of this.
Sadness interest me it's weird how something hurts so bad emotional that physical tears can come. I mean I get it when you fall and hit your knees. That hurts so you cry. That's your body's way of dealing with it. But I don't understand how something hurts so bad on the inside you cry. Nothing physical made that pain. I hate crying. I think because that's my instect. When I feel uncomfortable, scared, mad, sad or depressed I cry. I think that's why I'm so confused on tears.
Angry scares me. I HATE anger. I fall apart when I get yelled at. I can't handle when people are mad or dispointed with something I did. I don't see a time when it's okay to be angry.
Happiness is laughter. Happiness is joy and fun. I am happy with my friends but sometimes I'm not. Being happy is a treat. One I don't always get but when I do I cherish it. People say I always have a smile. That I am always happy. People are always jealous of that. To be honest all I do is fake it tell you make it.
My biggest fear is that I don't respond like normal people. That my emotions are unhealthy.
I did try to kill my self twice after all..
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Teen FictionThis is a place for a Olivia's thoughts and words. Her entry's might be random but that's okay because this is her life her story and life is random.
