"Hey Maddie are you ok" all my friends ask me cause this whole math thing is driving me crazy. "I am fine" everyone knows when someone says they are fine they really aren't "are you sure" no I am not sure I am not sure of anything the one thing I wanted to be sense I was in first grade is ruined. But of course I say "yes I am fine" cause I don't want to talk about it.
All day long the same two questions pop up from all my friends "Maddie are you ok you don't seam your self?" And "Maddie are you mad at me?" No I am not ok this crazy burden of me failing what my whole life was gonna be is awful if only I was good at math. I thought to my self but of course I tell them " yea I'm fine, no I am not mad at you. "
Elementary school math was so easy, if only it was elementary school again. I was so exited to grow up and go to middle school. I have no idea why. But now I want to be back in elementary school again.
All my friends keep telling me "I am here for you so if you ever need to talk just ask ok" of corse I know that that's why you are my friend if you aren't there for me then why would I be your friend. And again all I say is a word "ok " I think to my self I want to talk to you so bad but I don't know why but every time I try I just can't.
So after school I go home and I get a text from my friend hey how are you and in my head it is like not good I just want to cry if only I could find a way to tell you but when I try I just can't I am good how are you I text back she says good ok well I gtg aww how sweet she just wants to know how I am. Then I had to go and lie to her but I can't find the courage to tell her that I am failing my life everything I wanted to do and be is just gone.
That's when the few biggest questions struck me who am I ? what am I going to do with my life ? now what do I want to be???
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If Only
Teen FictionA teen girl named Maddie fails her math class which changes her life, and everything she wanted to be if only she had the courage to ask for help and talk about it.
