'Why don't you just get up and try,' they ask
They don't understand it's not that easy.
I can't just wake up and say 'I want to be happy,'
Its not that easy when your mind tells you you can't be enough
When it says, 'you can't get through this so why try?'
It's not that easy when your self esteem is so low, you have try hard to say 'I'm pretty.'
It's not that easy when you have a part of you that hates everything about you.
It's hard to be okay when you're not.
It's easier to say 'I'm fine' then to say that you're hurt.
It's easier to fake a smile then to let people see you're not okay.
It's easier to stay in your room all day and say you're sick then it is to say it's because you're depressed.
It's hard to be okay.
It's hard to have tried so hard, and fail.
It's hard when you don't even believe in yourself, when you think everyone hates you.
It's hard to tell people 'I'm depressed' because they'll judge you.
It's hard when you don't care about yourself and act like everything's perfect.
It's hard when everyone believes the lies you've told them.
