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Chapter 7: Someone Not Like Me

***Tessa's POV***

"-praise the lord Jesus for this horrible day to end!"I groaned once Nat, Cole, Sammyjo, and Carter and I leave Music class.

I mean Music class is by far my most favorite class ever because well it's like a free period for us music lovers. You can spend the time by writing new songs, making background music for tracks, and like album covers. Our teacher Mr. Dakota lets us do these stuff and there's 3 recording booths with instruments inside but every Friday we have days where we have to show the finished products. It helps for me and Sam because our band 'Chasing Midnights'. The guys also have a band called 'Fading Summer'. Actually they're more of a pop rock band while our group is pop rock, pop, pop and r&b. 

"So what's the name of your new song?"I asked Cole.

He held his guitar in one hand and his backpack slung on his shoulder,"it's called 'Snow White'."

"Why?"

"Well I'm starting the first verse and I love it so much,"Cole replied as we got into Nat's car. 

Kendall, Geneva, and Lorena were going to Kendall's car while Becky, Percy, Logan, and Marley went to Logan's car.

"Ooh can I see what you have so far?"I eagerly asked.

He handed me the music sheet and since he sat next to me he sang softly as we read it.

Mirror, mirror can't you see?

What you show is killing me.

How many times did you smile while crying inside?

We're smiling but close to tears.

And everyone can't hear your bitter calls through the night

Whispers overtaking the thoughts screaming inside 

When he finished singing that last line he looked me in the eyes and smile,"so, what do you think?"

I looked down and look back at him with a smirk on my lips,"cheesy, real cheesy. But really good. And it's kinda hard to see my best friend as a cheesy dude."

He chuckled as he looked down at his lap,"thanks. I actually wrote it for Melanie. Hopefully she likes it."

Ah. Melanie Clayton. Cole's girlfriend. Of course he'd write a song for her, he's such a sappy guy. Cole is one of my best friends and no matter how much it kills me I'm happy for him. Melanie is a great girl, I have to admit. Though everytime I see them together lately I don't know why but I get a sick feeling in my stomach. Like I wanna burst out crying, but I don't cry. I never cry. I mean the last time I cried was in 5th grade because I cut my knee really badly. 

"Oh, she'll love it."I gave a weak, fake smile while I tried not to think about Melanie and Cole together."It's really a great song Cole."

"Thanks Tess, coming from you it means a lot."He went back to texting Melanie while I saw Nat and Sam give me sympathetic smiles from the rear view mirror. I gave them one back in return as I looked out the window on my side.

My phone vibrated in my hands and I looked at the screen to see a new text from Carter.

Carter: he's just oblivious :)

Me: yeah right. so much for him having a crush on me. thanks anyway x

Carter: of course! i mean who else would throw food at me?! the world wouldn't be the same! 

I laughed at his text as I turned around to see him giving me thumbs up from the back seats. I gave him a thankful smile before I turned back to my window.

The others have always told me that Cole had a crush on me. I don't show like I care, but on the inside, 75% of me is hoping it's true. Despite the fact that he has a girlfriend. But the reality of it is proving to me that they were all wrong. I mean I know that people tell me that I'm beautiful so I wasn't really insecure but the fact is why would any guy like me? Ok maybe I had good looks, but my personality is to differ with. I mean I know I'm bitchy and that I'm too honest so why would any guy wanna deal with me? I am a handful, even for my friends. They have to convince me not to get into fights so I won't get in trouble with Mr. Andrews, Geneva's dad. My Dad says I'm hot headed like my Mom, and I don't know if that's a compliment or insult to be honest. I mean that's probably a mix of both.

I sighed as I put in my earbuds and played music from my iPhone. I don't know why but all of us love music from our parents time more than the music we have nowadays. So '18' by 5 Seconds Of Summer play in my ears as I wrote in my notebook of some new lyrics for a new song 'Chances'.

I stopped writing what I had so far for the first verse and read through my messy-ish handwriting.

In the end we only regret the chances we didn't take

Let the rain

Wash away all the pain of yesterday

I'm stuck right now

Stuck between hating myself

And hating the people around me

It's only the guilt that hangs down 

Am I regretful for not realizing that maybe Cole did have feelings for me? That maybe at one point he gave up after realizing that maybe I wasn't capable to be loved? Or maybe that he was tired of all my bullshit and just thought of me as a friend from now on.

I don't know if I wrote this song about Cole. Or maybe it was the emotions I felt for the past days about the hazel eyed boy. I know what I need to do now: stop thinking about him and push these feelings away.

And I'm determined to push whatever I thought I felt for Cole to be gone. I need to think of this as a small crappy crush I had whatsoever on him. I don't need to go through heartbreak or to go through drama. I hate that kind of shit. I only like drama only when it's for like a day, like getting in a fight with someone or something.

Well at least we can admit that Tessa is quick minded unlike Lita. 

QOTD: Who is more stubborn? Tessa or Lita?

Pic of Tessa on the side>>

Much Love Guys.

~IaMmE_Chick

xx