Chapter 1 //
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Justin's P.O.V
Do you ever get that one feeling where you just feel so lonely even when there's tons of people around you ? The feeling of drowning even though your still breathing. When people try to say " She was just a girl, just move on!" well I can't move on, It isn't that easy. No one understands my point of view in things, no I won't move on, I'm still sincerely in love with her.
She's always on my mind and I can't process the fact that it's all over, the kissing, the cuddling , sharing our secrets and most of all our friendship. It's all over .
Nothing has been the same since that day. I'm extremely reserved, I've changed my ways but it's not like I care.
" You ready for the club tonight Justin?" Lil Za asked me. I sighed. Since the breakup I haven't been in the mood for the club or for ridiculous things like dating. Why should I even move on, she was the only one I wanted and I still want her in my hands. I will not back down, I fell in love with her, so deeply .
" You know, I'm not really in that mood to go party tonight, maybe you should ask someone else Za" I dragged on. It's not that I want to decline Za's request but seriously I will most probably get drunk and do something reckless and regret it the next day, which isn't my plan for tonight. I'm not in the mood for a headache tomorrow.
" Come on Justin, it's been months since you've been to a club, let loose for once, maybe you'll meet someone new.... " lil Za insisted. His little persuasive ass can sometimes really get me, but not this time. I wasn't born yesterday, matter of fact I wish I was, I wouldn't be going through this but I would miss my dear fans. I love my fans more then anything, they got me where I am now.
" Za you know what happens when I get drunk, please just ask someone," I huffed and went to the fridge to get myself a cold drink. I know he won't let this go, he's been begging me for 3 months now but I haven't cracked just yet and I'm not planning too. Plus meet someone new, is he crazy, I'm still so in love with my dear love. He just doesn't get it.
" Justin please, I've been begging you for months, you owe me it. You might not regret letting loose and putting your mind somewhere else you know," he huffed. I might go for his words this one time, I will certainly not let myself go under reckless acts. I don't need the paps making stories about how reckless and crazy I am.
" Okay! Fine I will go, only this one time! " I sighed and went to my room and started getting ready. Wearing nothing but some black jeans and my Adidas. I knew it was going to be hot so why not be shirtless? I walked down my glass stairs, Yes I live in a glass house, simply adore it. I meet Lil Za in the car and head to one of the most popular clubs in LA. Lil Za insisted on going to " Lights" because he claims there's tons of hot girls there.
I honestly do not care, does he not see that I'm still not over my love, he must be intrigued by being called a womanizer. I do not like being called such a word, I'm respectful to all women no matter the circumstances. I might seem like your typical bad boy wanting to fvck your ass but it's not like that when I really like you.
I could see the flashing lights and all the drunk adolescents coming out and I of the club. Im still underage but I'm the Justin Bieber , they'd have to let me in. Not to be cocky or anything. I could smell the alcohol already and the smell of cigarettes in my senses. I smoke but only when I'm really stressed. I know it can kill you but it's a really good stress reliever.
