BI THE WAY [RANTS AND SHIT]

fuckkckk

"lets write about my problems and avoid doing the research paper that is due tOMORROW"
my mind rn
anyways
so i had a fucking unexpected ass invitation (literally yesterday) to go to california for thanksgiving week and i was like hell yeah y not but we still weren't sure if we was gonna go so i avoided doing this paper (thats due friday, but wait for it) bc i thought nah i never have anything good ass its probs not gonna happen anyways
today i find out that i dont only have fucking plane ticket bought and everything, im also lEAVING TOMORROW so i ALL THE THINGS I HAD DUE FRIDAY (a test, this thing for rotc[yes im an rotc kid], a project for spanish[that lowkey easy for me tho so]  and A FUCKING RESEARCH PAPER THAT I HAD NOT STARTED AT ALL) I HAVE TO TAKE/DO THEM TO SCHOOL TOMORROW AND IM FUCKING DYING OF SLEEP DEPRIVATION AND I WANT TO ACTUALLY STAB MYSELF

fuck im a fucking disaster i hate myself