Moving On

Broken

Broken. The only word that can describe me well. He broke me. He broke my heart into pieces.

Sebastian King.

My first love and will always be my last love. I have learned to love when I fell for him. He was the light that brought colours to my black and white life. He was the reason to my happiness. In total he was my everything and he still is.
I love him. I will always do.

Sometimes you tend to give more than necessary and you forget to take your share. Well in my case I gave more than one could give and I forgot to take my share. I gave him my love without expecting it from him because for me love was all about giving not taking. When it comes to love especially Loving Sebastian then I can never be selfish.
I always knew that in this process I will get hurt in the end because Sebastian was my brother's friend plus he had a girlfriend and he still has one even though it is not the same girl.

He coming into my life was an accident which was planned by me myself. Well I only planned his entry but falling for him was totally unplanned.

At first it was a guilt trip which took place for at least 1 week which eventually turned into love trip. I realised that I love him after dreading for one whole week for using his name without his permission.

If falling for him was unexpected then the things that I did after falling for him was even more unexpected. But I believed that you tend to crazy stuffs when you are in love and even crazier stuffs if that is your first love.

In one year time he became a good friend to me but never a lover. He knew that I loved him but he couldn't accept it as he was in a relationship and he doesn't want to spoil his friendship with my brother. 
I was still happy that we shared at least friendship but only I knew how much pain that the so called friendship gave me. It's true when people say that you can never be friends with someone you love.

In the end my love spoiled our friendship. I was even called as a Bitch. The first three years was dreadful because I had to face my so called friends who back-stabbed me. Those three years were nightmares.

After finishing high school I went for pre-university which took up another 2 years of my life. Unfortunately these 5 years there was only one person in my heart. Sebastian. I tried really hard to get over him but the more I try the more I fall in love with him. Funny isn't it?

Now it has been 6 years and guess what?
Yes , I'm still in love with him. Don't ask me why because no one knows why they fall in love.
I know that I should move on even my friends told me to do so but is moving on easy? No, moving on is not easy if it was I won't be crying over the same guy for the past 6 years. But little did I know that Christian Parker is the one who will help me to move on.
Would Moving on with Christian will make realise that he is the one for me??