Beg for it (daddy L.T) (completed)

chapter 30

I watched as Louis and Alex talked while Alex barbecued."He is a lovely young man."Mom said as she joined me at the table."That he is"I said in agreement as I continued to watch the guys talk an laugh.If I had a guess they was talking about football.

"They are talking about football" I looked from the guys to mom."How do you know?" she looked at me."Well when Alex talks about football he always does that side grin,an he does that weird chuckle." I looked from her back to the guys and Alex done just like mom said he does.

I smiled "he must do it a lot" she nods as we both watch the guys.I laugh causing Louis to look over at me.I smile and blow him a kiss.He winks then turns back to the conversation he is holding with Alex.

"Hey mom.can I ask you something?"I ask getting her attention. "yea of course"she says looking at me."I know when Alex asked when was me and Louis going to get serious I said I don't want to rush it.but I love him so much and I want him as my own.I want him to be my husband.but I'm not sure how to approach the topic with him.what do I do?"

She takes my hand in hers and rubs her other hand on top of mine."Just pull him to the side and talk to him.tell him how you feel.how much he means to you.and that you want him to be yours."

"I'm scared that something will go wrong or that something will screw it up"I confess "does he love you?"she asked I nodded."Do you love him?" again I nod."Well then when two people love each other nothing can go wrong or screw it up"she tells me.I smile and hug her.

We sit there an eat as we jump from topic to topic after a few minutes.I was actually enjoying myself very much.Not to mention Louis looked so relaxed and comfortable.Which is great an a breath of fresh air.

Mom an Alex went inside while I got up an walked over to the hammock."Lift up"daddy said so I do as told an he climbs in right behind me so I am laying on him.I take a deep breath a try to form the words I want to tell him an how I will go about telling him.

"What's wrong baby girl?"daddy asks noticing my odd behavior."I want to tell you something.but I'm not sure how to word it.or how to come by it"I tell him."Well just tell him how ever you want to." I nodded my head an begin.

"I love you more then anything else in this whole entire world.your my everything.and with out you I feel as if I will be nothing.I mean I know I have my mom and Alex.But that is not the same as having you.When I have you I have everything I could ever need and want.and I am not talking about what you buy me.I am talking about love.companionship,a partner,someone to adventure with.With you I have more then I could ever dream of."

I take a breath then continue. "I want to be with you for the rest of my life.I want to be only yours and you only be mine.I don't want to have to worry about anyone trying to separate us.or tear us apart.I want to wake up every morning an see you laying beside me.I want to go to sleep every night wrapped in your arms knowing that I will forever have that.that no matter what happens or what we go through that we will still be together."

I swallow back the tears as I sit up an brush the ones that fell.He sits up an has me face him."go on" I close my eyes for a brief moment."I want to have you as my own.I want you to have me as your own.I want to feel something more then what you already make me feel both in and out of the bedroom.I want so badly to be married to you"I finish an take a deep breath half walk relaxed.