Insomnia

Rant

I just decided the book is finished but I need to rant about what it feels like to be an insomniac and this felt like the best place to do that so sit back relax and enjoy the show.

First of all when you're an insomniac you're memory is actual shit and you can't so anything to fix it. That's why I have to tell all my friends I have a shit memory so if I forget something important please forgive me. And it also affects your time cause you forget what you want to do and have to remember what it is that you want to do. There's more on time so be ready for some repeating of somethings.

Secondly you're always in pain. And since you barely ever sleep you don't heal. Now this may just be me but I'm accident prone and stupid I mean I literally have a salt and ice burn on my wrist right now. So add accident prone and insomnia together for me I'm just a whole lump of pain. And when I do get sleep it's like I've been blessed.

Now the next one I have is time. With insomnia you're time is off and even if you have a clock you feel internally fucked. Because a little bit of sleep can last you for at least a day and a lot of fun the times longer. The reason is because you loose track of time and it could be 12:00 am but it feels only like 7:00 pm five hour difference that's pretty long.

And also mental issues are common like depression and anxiety. I've actually stressed myself out so much that my blood vessels in my lungs made my skin pink for three days and I was sick. And trust me depression is not fun to deal with either when you have it or someone else has it.

Also health, I know being in pain can contribute to this but I felt like it. Insomniacs are prone to getting a disease that makes the bones thin out. Now I've sprained my wrist and my ankle so that probably has come into my life. But for me and my shit immune system when I get sick it stays for a week then comes back the next month. Being sick in bed not having to go to school can be fun. But for me it's torturous because I like school.

Anyways that's only a little bit of my ranting for insomnia I could do more but I'll spare you.