Unexpected

The Four Elements

Mentally , physically and emotionally , I was done. I had given up on him. There's so much to him that nobody has ever seen ; anger , the urge to control , the abuse. Yet here I am , still here wanting on the , " I'm sorry I was just upset. I wasn't you , it was another audition for this commercial. Everything was so unorganized , it pissed me off so I took my anger out on you , forgive me? I love you babe xoxo " text. It was our daily routine  ; we wake up and chill , then we argue , and a few rounds of makeup sex and we're cool again. This is the most stressed out  I've ever been and I'm only 21. No I'm not 21 Savage , I'd like to think of myself as the Black Chyna of stress and independence. Nonetheless , I did the same thing I'd always done. I forgave him , until the cycle repeated a few hours later.

    Him , is my boyfriend , Jake. We've been together for 3 years , and since then we've been labeled the "bipolar couple" and I think it's actually true. Don't get me wrong , Jake is very passionate and many other qualities a girl could want in a guy , but there's so much more under all the skin cells and muscle , and I've gotten every last of it. A person has limits , and he doesn't think of mines. I remember when we were walking in our local shopping district and went to Chipotle. He literally got so angry with me that the whole restaurant didn't continue their meals or conversation until after we'd left and all I did was ask him about his day. Another time was when , we were going out , and he literally made me change into jeans and a tshirt with some mary jane church shoes. I looked absolutely ridiculous , while he went out with every designer piece of clothing in his closet . The worst part is , I couldn't even drink , go to the hookah bar or get close to the exit to escape that horrible place , but guess who did. If you guessed Jake then you get 10 million dollars from the loan place down the street. 

I had laid in my bed thinking about how my life would change if this never would've happened. If he would've never followed me college , if we never lived in the same apartment , if he wasn't in my life at all. Why should I put myself through all this stress and anxiety over someone who doesn't even know how to wash his own draws. Suddenly , I heard a knock on my apartment door. Getting up to open it , I took off my choker , and placed it in my secret hiding spot. I opened the door to receive a bouquet of red roses , a card , and a heart warming smile from the delivery guy.  I picked up my package and smelt the roses. They smelled like fresh landruary , it was one of the sweetest smells. The card read , " Dinner at 8 ! Wear that outfit I like ~J ". It was 1:00 pm , and I was already annoyed.

By 6:30 , I ran my bath and looked in my closet to find one of those outfits he liked.  The problem was , I didn't know what those outfits were. He's never complimented me on my outfits before , so I wore what made me feel the most comfortable. Adding rose petals to my bath , I had only an hour to get ready , and I'd make it the best relaxing hour before shit popped off.  I put on my favorite royal blue dress , black heels , and curled my hair. I felt absolutely flawless and nervous. We haven't been on a date in a very long time , and this has to be beyond serious.

    Once I pulled up to the restaurant , Jake stood outside in a black tuxedo , and a bouquet of roses. I had the velvet park my car , and greeted him with a kiss on the cheek. He smiled , and stared me down. His mood changed instantly.

" Is everything alright ? " I looked at him trying to read him.

"Uh....Where's the black dress ? " He said giving a evil glare. I was beyond confused , and my confidence dropped at least 10 mill. I thought I looked perfect. He shook his head in shame as I wiped a tear from my eye and was lead into the restaurant. After hours of hearing about him and his company , Jake finally asked me about my day. I told him it was fine , and started to tell him about the new book I was writing , but he switched the topic back to him again. He seen the looks on my face , and returned a sad one.

"Are you not having a good time ?" He asked.

" Jake , honestly I'm.." The once sad look turned into displeasure , irritation , and rage.

" You should be having fun right now Natalie . I'm taking you on an expensive vacation in Greece. Eating marvelous food , buying the fanciest clothes yet , here you are unhappy." He caressed my hand , and squeezed it. He smiled at me , and never let my hand go ,increasing his grip each succeeding , suffering second , until the waiter came with our meal. I smiled at the waiter , as a thank you , and the same look was on his face as when he seen me outside.

"So..is that what you like ?"  I sighed . I felt the pain from the argument that was quickly approaching ; I really wasn't listening to him , and chose to eat the rest of my meal. It was such a pain to sit there and listen to a man when you couldn't even drown him  out with wine or anything.

" Can you stop arguing with me please. This is supposed to be a date , and your making it no fun by getting upset over nothing. You know there's nobody but you in my life Jake." I rolled my eyes.

" Well maybe if you hadn't smiled at him , I wouldn't be making these accusations Natalie.Is he who you want to be with ? Is that what you like now ? " My mind had literally exploded . I got up from the table and went to the bathroom to calm myself down. I went inside my purse , grabbed my flask and chugged down my drink.  When I exited the bathroom , I seen him outside of the ladies room waiting on me.  I popped a piece of gum in my mouth and exited.

" You know that's illegal right? " I looked my partner up and down.

" You don't love me " He had a puppy look on his face. This was apart of his game. He'd always do this after we've get into arguments; to make me feel guilty over crimes I didn't commit.

" You know I love you Jake " I gave him a warm smile. He smiled back at me and pulled me close. He whispered , " Then fucking act like it . "

We came back to the table , and everything was normal again. We were talking , eating , laughing. Everything felt good , our moods were better. The waiter came back with my favorite cake , and gave us two forks. I actually wanted to take the fork home...don't judge me they were cute!

    Digging threw the cake , I discovered a diamond ring. Jake got on one knee and asked , " Will you marry me ?" Time was frozen. There was so much in my life I still haven't achieved , and yet he wants to marry me like we weren't just arguing thirty minutes ago. Three years with him seemed like forever already. Yes I loved him , but if we're as bad as we are now , how could we have a successful marriage ? Would I ever achieve my personal goals? I had so much planned that marriage wasn't in the picture. Besides ...I wasn't myself anymore. I didn't know what to think , say or do. I needed my sanity , and self worth. And if I wanted those back...I couldn't get it with him. My thoughts were interrupted when the restaurant's emergency bell rang. Jake immediately grabbed me , holding me so close to him. Glass breaking everywhere , it was a robbery. We were being held hostage. Security had been killed , and we were ordered to stand by the wall as the robbers searched  the place. One of the robbers grabbed me by my arm and took me into a spare room. Jake risked his life to get me back.

    Being tied up in a kitchen wasn't the most fun. I was greeted by one of the robbers. She had long brown hair , sparkling green eyes , and the best eyebrows I had ever seen in a long time , atleast thats how I imagined her. She asked me a lot of questions I didn't know the answer too. The last set of questions , was about Jake and his company. I denied everything , and laughed at her. I felt a warm sensation come across my face , and a wet sensation down under. It had turned me on ; the way she looked at me.

    When she was done , she aggressively picked me up and shoved me back into the restaurant. Jake instantly hopped up and hugged me. She grabbed a stick and pushed us both down to the ground as I grew wetter. She gave me a sly smile as if she known what was going on in my mind. Happily enough , the robbers found what they were looking for and we were no longer on lockdown. Jake untied me and drove us home ; erasing the question from existence.

Hours passed as Jake felt very proud of himself in the bedroom. I was proud of him too ; finally making me have a orgasm without me sneaking into the bathroom to finish the job. I laid on top of his chest , thinking about all the shit that happened today.

" You loved  it , right  baby ? " He asked with so much confidence.

" Mmhmmmmm " I rolled my eyes and looked at the very outside our hotel.  Greece was so beautiful at night , and so was she.