12:51 [SHORT STORY]

Part 2

I saw Kid with his new girl friend. They seemed pretty happy and sweet.

And now I feel like I wanna break down and cry.

But of course, I won't. I need to stay strong. Especially right now. I'm in front of a lot of people. I'm in front of a crowd. But most of all, I'm in front of THEM. I need to stay strong. They need to see that I don't care. But, I'll change the song I'm going to sing.

I held the microphone and spoke, "As we all know, Valentine's is an hour away." I smiled at the crowd without looking at Kid. "And I want to sing this song because it tells exactly how I feel this coming Valentine's Day. Sana... Sana magustuhan niyo."

I started strumming and singing...

(A/N: 'Yung video nasa right side! :D -->)

Scrolling through my cellphone for the 20th time today

Reading that text you sent me again

Though I memorized it anyway

Yes, I admit. I'm still reading the messages you sent me. All those, 'Hey, eat your lunch. Okay?' Those, 'I love you's' and 'I miss you's.' Those simple 'Good morning' texts. Kahit na kabisado ko na, binabasa ko pa din. And now, I'm starting to wonder. Scripted kaya lahat ng sinabi mo?

It was an afternoon in December

When it reminded you of the day

When we bumped into each other

But you didn't say hi cause I looked away

Oo nga pala, naalala mo pa kaya kung pa'no tayo unang nagkakilala? December 5 nun. Nasa park kami ng mga kaibigan ko. And that time, bumibili ako ng ice cream. Nung pabalik na 'ko, I bumped you. And then I realized na nahulog sa'yo 'yung ice cream so I just ran. Hahaha. Crazy me. Natakot kasi ako na baka magalit ka.

And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life

And maybe I haven't moved on since that night

Pero siguro sana hinarap na lang kita at nag-sorry. Pero hindi naman din natapos dun lahat eh. You ran and asked for my number. And then we dated. Something I didn't expect. But the night I spilled the ice cream on you, the night I met you, I still remember it. Every single thing, every single detail. And maybe, hay.. And maybe... I will never be able to forget that night. Pero kung nag-sorry kaya ako sa'yo nun, hahantong tayo dito? Hahantong tayo sa ganito?

Cause it's 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone

But I'm lying on my bed, thinking of you again

And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight

Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer

Bakit ba kasi nagkaganito tayo? We were so fine back then, what happened? I admit, hindi pa din kita makalimutan. I tried a hundred times before but I just can't. Siguro, I'm not yet ready. Siguro, hindi ko pa kaya. Samantalang ikaw? Ayan, may bago na.

Then I saw you with her

Didn't think you'd find another

And the world just seemed to crash

Shouldn't have thought this would last

Mas maganda. Mas maputi. Mas matangkad. 'Yun ba ang nakita mo sakanya? Sorry ha? I'm not that good-looking like her. But I never thuoght you'd replace me. Sabi mo dati, you love me for who and what I am. For who and what I am not. You even promised that you would love me sincerely. You even promised that you would love me... forever.

And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life

And maybe I haven't moved on since that night

And yes, maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life. Trusting you and entrusting my heart with you. Because you never took care of it. You just got it broken.

Cause it's 12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone

But I'm lying on my bed, thinking of you again

And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight

Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer

And here I am again, thinking of you. And as much as I want to cry, I can't. How did you stop loving me Kid, huh? How? I want to know. Para naman malaman ko din kung pa'no ko hihinto ng pagmamahal sa'yo. Do you know how much it pains me whenever I see you with her?

As the sky outside gets brighter

And my eyes begin to tire

I'm slowly drowning

In memories of him

Nakakapagod na umiyak. But that's the only thing I can do to lessen the pain. Kahit na alam kong kahit ilang balde pa ang i-iyak ko, hindi ka na babalik sa'kin. I remember our memories. 'Yung mga tawanan natin. Iyakan natin. We were always by each other's side. Hayy.. Kaya ko pa kaya 'yan ngayun kahit na mag-isa lang ako? Kahit na... wala ka na sa tabi ko?

And I know it shouldn't matter

As my heart begins to shatter

I'm left to wonder

Just how it should have been

Pero ano pa nga bang pakielam mo 'di ba? Kahit na masaktan ako o umiyak sa harapan mo, wala namang mangyayari. I'm no one to you now. Even though for once, you loved me. Pero, ganun ba talaga dapat ang nangyari?

12:51 and I thought my feelings were gone

But I'm lying on my bed, I'm not thinking of you again

And the moon shines so bright, but I gotta dry these tears tonight

Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on

Anong oras na ba? Anong petsa na? Maybe I should forget you no matter how hard it may be. Starting tonight, I'll forget you. I won't cry anymore no matter how painful it is. I'll fight the tears and hold everything back.

Cause I'll prove you wrong that I can move on through this song

So much stronger

I can move on. One day, you'll see that I'm not going to fall on my knees just for you. One day, you won't see my tears anymore. One day, I will forget everything. I will forget you and what we had. I'll be strong. And I'll prove that.

I stood up while carrying my guitar and said, "Happy Valentines." Then I left with —

"VENISSE LAURIE GUEVERRA!! GUMISING KA NAAAAAAAAAA!!!"