'Worthless. Stupid. Terrible singer. Ugly...'
My eyes begin to water as I scroll through the horrible page that I have been tagged in. My mum told me to stay off any website for the time being but I just couldn't listen. Damn me and my stubbornness. Ugh. "Harry where are you?" Someone called but I didn't care. I just quickly closed my laptop and rubbed my eyes pretending that I just woke up. My sister, Gemma walked into the room and told me that mum sent her to check on me. She sat down next to me on my bed and looked at me sorrowfully. "What happened? Why are you looking at me like that Gem?" I asked as soon as she turned to me with sad eyes. "M-mum thought it was best if you started packing before y-you leave." She stuttered out and almost started crying. "What?! Why, where am I going?" I asked forcefully. "Mum said you have to go to a hospital because you're sick, only for a few months maybe a year though. But you'll be back soon. She said even though we can't visit, we can still write letters to you after you leave." She gasped, sounding out of breath at the thought of me leaving. "Oh." I said. "So you wanna help me pack then?" I asked and her face lit up. "Yes, yes, yes! I CAN ORGANIZE EVERYTHING FOR YOU!" She practically yelled. "Then let's get started!" I said.
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***Flashback***
"I hate everyone! I hate myself, so much! What did I ever do to them? Nothing. Ugh. I HATE MY LIFE!"
I yelled kicking my desk. I then punched my wall right after. "I hate everything! I wanna die!" I yelled again while throwing anything I could get my hands on. I soon came to find a box in the back corner of my closet. I grabbed it furiously and opened it. I grabbed the cool, shiny metal object. I pulled up my sleeves revealing my other scars and somewhat healing cuts. "I want to die. I need to die." I kept chanting as I slowly and deeply sliced my milky pale skin open on both arms at least five times each. I dropped the blade and started to feel dizzy. I fell on my bed. "Peace, at last." My dull green eyes slowly started to droop. I have never felt happier. I closed my eyes fully right before I heard my door open and shrieking. I immediately realized it was my mom. I heard her run over, but I was slipping away quickly. "Harry, Harry please wake up baby! Please please. HARRY WAKE UP C'MON I KNOW YO CAN! OH MY BABY BOY PLEASE!?" She yelled before I heard her pull out her phone and call someone. "Yes! I need an ambulance my son, my son he he-"was the last think I heard before I blacked out.
***Still flashback but a few hours later in the flaskback***
"Gem- no. Yes. No-no Gemma! He is fine just a little sick. Please stay home. I'll bring him home soon." My mom got off the phone with Gemma and turned to me startled. "Oh Harry you're awake!" She said, her voice filling with joy. "I love you so much and I never want to be scared like that again and to never lose you." She proclaimed before starting to tear up and come over to hug me tightly. "Do you know why you here?" She asked me. "Why am I still alive?" I muttered. My mom just looked at me with a look of disappointment then started crying. "My baby. Oh my precious baby boy. Why didn't you tell me you felt this way?" She gasped. "I-I I just, I don't know. I just hate myself so much! You should've let me kill myself. I would've out of everybody's way and then everybody would be happy." I said. "Well no. we wouldn't have been happy. Think about Gem and me. I mean Gemma's at home now crying her eyes out because she thinks you're just 'sick'." She told me. I sat there finding a new interest with the IV in my arm. "Baby were gonna help you and get you helped." I soon looked at her and began, "I'm so sorry mum. I promise I'll try to get better. For you and Gemma. I love you." She looked at me through blurry vision from teary eyes. "You're only human honey. Remember that. I love you too."
***End of flashback***
Hey. Its me the author of dis book. This isn't my first book obviously so yeah. I mean I had nother book I deleted because im gonna finish writing it before I repost it. So yeahh read dis though. I have other chapters im writing now soooooo. I guess dats all.
-XX Chloeeeeeeeeeeeee <3
