Sins

Your Sin That I kept (Suicide)

Tears fell down from her eyes as she walked off the building. Blood splattered and slowly came out of her body as she fell down hard to the ground. Her eyes were open wide and her mouth gushed out a ton of blood. She died. My best friend died once again in front of me. Why can't I stop it? Why wont you let me stop you? This is the 99th time that you committed suicide. I'm almost at my limits but you still never stopped. I tried showing you how much I cared for you, I tried to guard you, I tried to stop you, I tried to save you, I tried to scare you, I tried so many times but you never stopped. Why won't you stop? Why won't you let me save you? What made you commit suicide? Tell me why.... The area got louder and people started panicking. The cops together with the ambulance arrived and everyone stared at her. The sight of her dead on the ground, I already got used to it. Once again, I took out a pocket knife and ran home. Quickly I removed my shirt and faced the mirror. It was full of scars, from my neck to my arms and my back. It was filled with scars that I made to restart the day. Once again, I'll cut myself so everything will reset, the day will restart and I'll try saving her once again. I placed the pocket knife to my arms and sliced a bit of it. My body faints and when I open my eyes its morning again but the cut will leave another scar. This is my 100th attempt to save the girl that I love, my girl best friend. I got up and as always, I got ready for school. A plate with bacon and eggs are placed on the table and I started eating it. Everything's the same, the food, the date, and the class that will start when I get there. The news too was the same, it was about a doppleganger. I'm already sick of seeing the same thing over and over again. I ran to school and into the classroom. She was there as always, reading a book about some romance story that she loves. She puts her book down and smiles as she sees me.

"Hey Edicius!"

I smiled at her and waved my hand. I walked to my seat that was just right next to her and she suddenly moves her seat right next to me and places her head to my lap while reading the book.

"Hey! If you ever commit Cidesui then I'll pull you away and take your place"

She puts her book to her stomach and raises a brow. I could see myself reflecting in her eyes. Even if you don't get it, please promise me you'll never follow behind. I give up, I don't wanna see you suffer anymore. Im sorry but I had enough. The sight of the person I love commiting suicide is painful.

"What the heck is cidesui? Is that supposed to be some code or something?"

I laughed and quickly changed the topic.

"Btw I forgot to tell you something!"

"What is it?" She chuckled.

"I love you" I smiled and chuckled.

She grabbed her book and quickly shoved it to her face while gripping the book. Her ears were bright red and her book cover started to crumple. This is the first time I told her I love you, how will she react?

"I..... Love you too...."

My eyes widened and she started to grip the book much tighter. I placed my hand to my face and covered it. She's so cute I can't help myself.

"That's so unfair...."

"You started it...."

Both of us got silent but we then laughed it off and started to smile at each other. The day continued and the time of her death is coming, she said she was going to the bathroom so I couldn't follow behind. I don't wanna see her dead... I'm leaving. I stood up and started running. 5 more minutes before she dies, I gave up already so I'm sorry Rina. I didn't stop running, instead I ran faster and faster.

"This is good bye Rina, I always loved you"

I opened the door and just before she walks off the building, I grabed her hand and pulled her to my direction.

"Why!? Why do you keep trying to kill yourself!?"

"Edi....."

I gripped her arms tightly and tried to stop her from any movements.

"Tell me!!!!" Tears slowly fell from my eyes and into chin.

"Because I can't take it anymore!! This is my 1,000th time commiting suicide but you never stopped saving me!!"

"What?"

"If you want to save me then let me go!!! I can't.... I can't handle seeing you dead once more cause of me" tears started falling from her eyes.

"What do you mean?"

"If I live, they'll know I'm a murderer and you'll sacrifice yourself for me once again...." She quickly falls to her knees. "You died cause of me..... but if I died then maybe you'll live"

Rina.... My innocent best friend is a murderer..... I didn't want to accept reality, I wanted to continue thinking she was innocent. Who did you kill? Why did you kill? How is it that you're a murderer? Please tell me you're kidding, tell me it's a lie, tell me it's a prank, or a joke. Rina would never kill anyone....

"So please.... Let go of me.... If I die you'll live...."

I let go of her hand and lowered my head. She stood up and smiled. I didn't want to live in a world without her, I just didnt want to... I pulled her hands and quickly hugged her.

"Then at least let me join you...."

I let go of her hand and quickly ran to the end of the building. If its for her, I'm not afraid of killing myself.

"Edicius!!!!"

I don't care if you're a murderer, I don't care if you killed, and most of all, I don't care if I die. As long as I'm with you I will do anything, including killing myself so please let me join you in your sin. This is your sin, that I kept to the end.

"-di! Edi!"

I could hear her voice getting further away.... I see.... So she didnt commit suicide.... I slowly closed my eyes as the ground got nearer and nearer. Splash!!!
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I.... Died....

The end...

(Don't bother the wrong grammar in the cover, she tried so hard making it. Also nice to meet you readers xD :3)

If you think suicide is ok well you're wrong, and commiting suicide will just lead you to feel the same feeling that made you want to commit suicide. If you think you'll go to heaven after commiting suicide you're wrong, cause it will only send you to hell. Never commit suicide, cause you're just passing pain to others. Just like Edicius who tried to kill himself so many times just to save you from commiting suicide. What if there is someone like Edicius in your life yet you didn't know? will you not feel bad having to see all the scars in his body as he continues to sacrifice for you? Your life is important, that's why learn to take care of it.