Why Don't I Call You Ciel? Ciel Phantomhive...

III

I wasn't about to let Ciel stay home by himself while I am at work. Never again. Absolutely not. So, if he can't stay home, he will just have to come with me. He can stay in the break room or something. I don't care.

I haven't actually come up with a good reason to tell the manager yet...I am just going to wing it when we get there.

There is one downside to this though, I have to spend money on traveling fees. I can't have Ciel finding out I'm not human, so no more demon-speed for me. It is depressing that I have to spend money on such things but there is no other way to go about this.

"Are you sure it's okay for me to go with you?" he asks me while we get on the train.

"Would you rather be by yourself?" I say in response. He shakes his head and looks at the ground, blushing again. Why is he blushing?

There are a lot of people on it today, or is this normal for a train? I wouldn't know, I barely use them. There are too many so the seats are all taken. I guess that means we have to stand. That's fine. Annoying, but fine.

Ciel is too short to reach the handle so he grabs ahold of my shirt sleeve instead. Blushing, again. Does he have an issue with heat? Or is he really just that self-conscious around me?

The train comes to an abrupt stop. Ciel loses his balance and almost falls over, so I catch him like the gentleman I am.

"Are you alright?" I ask. He doesn't say anything and just nods. "This is where we get off," I say. The doors open and the people flood in and out. This crazy crowd would separate us! I grab Ciel's hand and try to make our way through the people.

We're almost to Wagnaria. Just a little more and we'll be there.

"How long are you going to hold my hand?" he asks me. I had forgotten that I was holding it.

"Oh, sorry, I didn't realize..." I say beginning to let go. He refuses to let me and just holds onto my hand tighter.

"It's fine," Ciel doesn't make eye contact with me and continues to look at the ground. He is so cute, dawww, why are you doing this to me?! It is a crime for anything to be this adorable!

"Is this where you work?" Ciel asks when we finally get there.

"Yes, the people here a bit odd though, so you don't have to talk to them if you don't want to."

"Gah! When did this adorable creature get here! He is so small and cute!" the #1 weirdo of them all says. I can understand his feelings but...if you dare lay a finger on this cinnamon roll...I will end you.

Ciel hides behind me for most of the day. Takanashi continues to try and get a word out of him but nothing works. Good job Ciel! So proud of you! Don't talk to him, he is a strange one.

"Yo, Sebastian, why did you bring this guy here?" the manager asks me.

"Some things happened and he ended up in my care. I can't really leave him by himself so..."

"Ah, I see," she says and goes back to slacking off and eating parfaits. That was just as easy as I expected it to be.

It was a little difficult to go about my job with Ciel following me all over the place but it wasn't anything I couldn't handle. It was better than not being able to do my job at all from being worried about if he was okay or not.

"Hey, I've been thinking about this for a while now but...he isn't Japanese is he Sebastian-san? Actually, you don't look very Japanese yourself..." Souma asks. I am currently drying plates and half-tempted to throw one at him. He gets on my nerves and he doesn't even try half the time.

Ciel shakes his head 'no' and mumbles, "I'm British."

"He can speak!" Souma smiles with delight. That creepy grin, it reminds me of the Undertaker...and they don't even look anything alike.

"If you're British what are you doing in Japan?"

"I'm looking for someone," Ciel' voice doesn't get any louder, it just remains quiet and he continues to stand behind me.

"Looking for who though?" Souma, can you please stop being so nosy? It is bothersome.

"The person who killed my family!" Ciel raises his voice. It shocks Souma and I both. Ciel jumps up and sits on the counter swinging his feet back and forth smiling. "Ne, have you ever heard of the Black Butler?" suddenly he is very enthusiastic. Does he hate the murderer or love him? I can't quite tell...

"Oh! You mean the legend assassin?! Who became just as famous as Jack the Ripper?!"

Haaah? Ciel is looking for me?! When did I get such a crappy name like 'Black Butler'? So I wore a lot of black...and was a butler...okay maybe it makes sense but still....

"Yes! Yes! That's the one! They say he always dressed like a butler each time he went out to kill. He would only use pure silver knives! They added the 'black' to his nickname because every time he killed a dark aura would appear around the victim and all you could see was his crazy red eyes!"

Ciel is very enthusiastic about this. I don't remember ever killing anyone related to this guy...but then again...I didn't really care who it was that was dying either...

"So, Ciel-kun. Are you searching for revenge?" Souma asked. For once I don't mind all of the questions since I am curious too.

"Ah, well, I was mad at first since I had to grow up on the streets. But now I'm certain! I want to marry him! My family was a really terrible group! They did all sorts of bad things! Black Butler must really be an awesome guy!"

Souma and I both stared at him in shock. You do know that he was an assassin right? That doesn't make him, err, well, me, a saint.

"You're so weird!" Souma laughed. "Even if you did find him...I'm sure he is probably long dead by now...or at least super old! You wouldn't be able to marry a guy like that."

"It'll be fine! He is supposed to be a demon! So he probably doesn't even look that old anyway!"

As much as I am honored by that...I'm kind of offended too. They both just called me old. I'm not that old...when you think about it. I'm just on a different sense of time...I'm not old...right? T-T

I really don't ever want him to find out I'm the person he is looking for. That would just depress me. I mean think about that, he would only stick around because of my assassin-ness.

Ah, wait.

I'm only keeping him around because of his Ciel-ness...so why am I getting so hurt? That doesn't seem right.

Now I'm confused.

If I don't like him because he looks like Ciel...then have I really started to become attached to him for some other reason?

No, no, no, no, no, that can't be right.

"I'm not weird! I just love the Black Butler!" those words really irk me. I can't be getting jealous of myself now...can I?