The Fear Of Failure

Advise From The Worlds Best Wingman

~ Kellins POV ~

The tour bus is so much quieter now, I dont like it. I miss hearing Daria play with her toys, giving them all unique voices and making them perform her favourite songs, a lot of which are our bands songs, so hearing her sing them always made everyone happy. I miss always having someone to talk to. I mean, dont get me wrong, it's not like Im alone on this tour, but there's nobody quite like Charlotte. Im not going to let myself get sad over missing them though, because I know that would only make her feel worse, and she'll stay in touch until she sees us again anyway. I think it's time she started focussing on herself, and what she wants, rather than never thinking about herself, and just making others happy. The only reason she thinks of herself these days is to blame herself when something bad happens, even though it isnt her fault at all. Saying goodbye to them yesterday was difficult, and strange, because she's never left mid-tour before, but then, I guess that, with Daria getting older now, she really needs her education.

I really hope Sean makes her happy. I wonder how he's doing? I dont know if Char has given him my number yet, she might've forgotten. I wonder if he's made a move on Char yet?

Im playing video games on the bus with Justin, as Gabe and Jack are both asleep in their bunks, and Nick is texting his wife. I would usually be doing the same, but Katelynne told me that she's going to sleep early tonight, because Copeland kept waking her up last night, crying because she was having nightmares. At one point, when Katelynne was texting me last night after Copeland woke her up for the third time, I called her, and calmed Cope down as best I could, then after that, Kate said she didnt have another nightmare. I hate being away from my family so much, especially my daughter, but it has to be done, unfortunately.

Nick clears his throat "Hey, Kellin, your phone's ringing."
I raise an eyebrow, my phone's on silent because I wasnt expecting any calls, and new I'd only be getting shitty notifications, I've left it on charge for the past few hours, and Nick is sat right beside the charger.
"Who's calling me?" I ask him, not looking away from the screen as I beat Justins ass on Mortal Kombat X.
"An unknown number." Nick answers.
I shrug "Just let it ring, it's probably a sponsored company call or some shit."
Nick nods, and goes back to looking at his phone.
A few minutes later, Nick grabs my attention again.
"The unknown number just texted you." He tells me.
I sigh, and pause the game "I'll be right back Justin."
I pick my phone up grab a hoodie, before exiting the bus. I stand outside, in the dark, leaning against the bus door. Holy shit it's cold here!
I unlock my phone, and go to my messages.

Unknown Number: Hey, it's Sean, Charlotte gave me your number...can we talk?

I raise an eyebrow and add him to my contacts, before texting him back.

Me: Hey man! Sure, what's up?

Sean: I asked Charlotte out on a date, and she said yes.

I smile widely as I type out my response.

Me: Dude! That's fucking awesome! Im so happy for you!

Sean: Yeah, it really is.

Me: Are you ok?

Sean: Im honestly shitting myself.

I laugh slightly, shaking my head.

Me: It'll go fine Sean, dont worry about it! She really likes you, you know that.

Sean: Yeah, I just...I dont know.

Me: Do you want me to give you a briefing on things she may do and what to do if she does them, so that you're a little more prepared and confident on your date?

Sean: I'd really appreciate that, thank you!

Me: Ok, if she pokes you at any point, it means she wants attention. That attention can range from just a simple smile, to a full on make out, depending on how she feels. If at any point she seems tense or anxious, comfort her, and dont ask her why she felt that way until she's calmed down. She's a huge fan of cuddles, and cheesy shit in general, though Im pretty sure you know that by now. Just be yourself man, and you'll do fine.

Sean: Thank you so fucking much! Have you and Charlotte ever dated?

Me: No, why?

Sean: I was just kinda wondering how you knew so much about her dating habits?

Me: I've met every guy she's been on a date with for the past 10 years almost, plus, she's confided in me countless times about all this shit, for occasions such as this one where the guy she likes is wondering things, and Im her wingman.

Sean: Haha, that makes sense! Has she dated a lot of guys since you've known her?

Me: No, not really. She's been on little dates, and been in short term relationships that never last longer than a month. She's a very insecure person, and she's very protective of Daria, so she often breaks up with guys out of fear of them being the same as her own dad was. She doesnt want Daria getting attached to someone who doesnt plan to stay in her life if things go downhill.

Sean: What do you mean "out of fear of them being the same as her own dad was"?

Me: That's something I'll leave her to tell you, as it's not really my place to, and if she's not ready to tell you yet then thats her choice. Just remember that, if you really love Charlotte, you have to accept that she has a lot of insecurities, and a lot of issues relating to the entire male species.

Sean: I will keep that in mind, thank you. Where's Daria's real dad? Or cant you tell me that either?

Me: Again, sorry dude, but I cant tell you that. She'll tell you eventually, you just have to give her time, that's all.

Sean: I understand, I can wait, I'll wait forever if I have to.

Me: You really love her, dont you?

Sean: More than anything.

Me: Im glad you do, or I'd beat the shit out of you.

Sean: Haha, I dont doubt that you would!

Me: I've gotta go man, Im standing outside the bus to talk to you so that the guys dont interrupt this or steal my phone, but it's fucking freezing, and it's basically pitch black out here! Text me if you need help with anything else Charlotte related! Or, just for a friendly conversation, I guess, that works too, haha!

Sean: Ok, thanks again!

Me: Bye dude!

Sean: Bye!

I slide my phone into my back pocket, before entering the bus again.
Nick raises an eyebrow at me "Who was it?"
I sit back down and continue playing Mortal Kombat X "Charlotte's future boyfriend."
Nicks eyes widen in shock, then he realises who I mean, and he laughs "Oh, Sean! How is he?"
"He's good, but he's nervous for his date with Char, so I was just giving him some advice and stuff to help him out." I explain.
Nick smiles "You're such a good wingman!"
I smile back at him "The best!"
"AROUND!" Justin sings loudly, making Nick and I jump.
I hit his shoulder "That was so fucking loud!"
Justin smirks.
I shake my head "Hoe dont do it."
Justin wiggles his eyebrows "ThATS WHAT SHE SAID!"
I facepalm "Oh my god."
"THAT MEME IS FUCKING DEAD!" Jack shouts from his bunk.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP, LIKE YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MEMES!" I shout back.
"EXCUSE ME, BUT DO YOU RUN A SECRET AND ANONYMOUS MEME ACCOUNT ON INSTAGRAM WITH OVER 3 MILLION FOLLOWERS AND 8,000 POSTS!?! I THINK NOT!" Jack retaliates.
Justin raises an eyebrow "Dude, that's just fucking sad."
Jack is silent for a moment, before he shouts "SHUT UP ASSHOLES, IM TRYING TO SLEEP!"
Justin, Nick and I all laugh and shake our heads, before I continue destroying Justin on Mortal Kombat X, and Nick focusses on his wife. We're all such dorks oh my god.