50 Reasons to Live

1. Get smashed.

“Hey, Harry,” Louis giggled, looking over at him and putting a hand on his knee to get Harry’s attention away from the swaying bodies in front of him as they watched dazed from a ratty couch.

“Lou Lou!” Harry exclaimed over the loud bumps of the music, laughing as if the nickname was the absolute funniest thing in the world. The amount of alcohol consumed by the two in the past hour was enough to hold down an elephant, making everything completely hilarious to them.

Louis paused for a moment, looking thoughtful. “Promise me you won’t look at me like I’m going to die,” he said, still smiling.

Harry turned his head to the side in confusion. “But aren’t you going to die?” he asked simply.

“Yeah, yeah. But I don’t want to feel like it,” Louis explained and not more than two seconds later, he started laughing again.

“Hey, Louis,” Harry said, looking at the other boy mischievously.

“Yeah?” Louis asked through his fit of giggles.

Harry didn’t even look at the crowd of people at the party before saying, “Wanna make out?” and crashing his lips onto Louis’ without waiting for an answer.

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2. Wake up somewhere different than where I fell asleep.

“The fuck?” Louis groaned, grabbing his pounding head as he sat up. He looked around and noticed he was in the grass in the front lawn of what’s his name’s party, they had gone to last night.

He saw Harry over a little, laying in a bush that looked far too pointy to be comfortable, mouth open with drool on his chin.

Maybe he gotten a bit more smashed than planned.  

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3. Eat an entire box of Fruity Pebbles for breakfast.

Louis looked down at his fifth and final bowl of Fruity Pebbles and scrunched up his nose as he felt his stomach churn. He wasn’t hungry anymore, but he started this list and he was sure as hell going to end it. 

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4. Get a tattoo.

“Fuck, Harry, this is going to hurt, isn’t it?” Louis said nervously, biting his lip and glancing at the needle the burly man was about to press against the inside of his wrist. In the harsh fluorescent lighting of the shop, the flesh looked all too vulnerable.

“Yes, baby, but I know you can do it,” Harry murmured into his ear, placing a soft kiss on it’s shell. 

“So, you want ‘bravery’, right?” the man asked one final time, the needle coming dangerously close to his skin now.

Louis gulped once more before nodding and squeezing his eyes shut.

It was worth it.

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5. Not die a virgin.

“Louis, you have to be sure about this. This isn’t like anything else on your list, this is-” Harry took a deep steadying breath, “this is big.” He looked down Louis’ bare chest with wide eyes, hovering hesitantly over his body.

“Fuck, Harry. I’m almost eighteen years old and I’m going to die. But I am not going to die a virgin. We’ve been going out for eight months! People our age would have done it ages ago. We have to do it now, before I can’t. I’m going to get weaker, Harry, and there is no way I’m ever going to be up for this anymore. Come on, Harry, I want you. I want all of you.”