I Need Someone to Talk To...

Life Hurts

I have been getting bullied by my so called "friends" after leaving the school...
Words like bitch, faggot,fat,nerd and so on by students online from my other school. I have never got the courage to tell my mum it would break her heart to see me in pain... I have a anxiety disorder that has gotten worse over the years and if i see people talking. I will always assume they are talking about me it hurts. I even wanted to cut myself over it. Before I left people told me that they wouldn't miss me. That thought was always on my head and started effecting my sleep schedule. Sometimes I would FINALLY sleep around 3 or 4. It also started affecting my regular day emotion and attitude. I would sit alone and not talk to anyone. Some teachers even gave me looks on rare occasions they would pull me aside and ask if I was okay I always said I am fine but on the inside I felt broken and vunerable. My mum eventually found out so I was taken to therapy. I lied to my own therapist about the bullying and my suicidal thoughts I am to scared to give in if I tried it wouldn't come out of my mouth only in stutters and mumbles. I am complete mess and can't pull myself back together. If you have tips or atleast some thoughtful words please tell me anything would help me right now...