Crushed

Crushed 3

When seb finally stumbled out of bed the next day, he didn't look much happier. Chuck offered him a small smile, which seemed to only make Seb even more sad.

Chuck sighed. Seeing seb like this broke his heart. He hated it. He got up from the couch and walked over to the smaller man who was picking at his waffles.

"Seb?" He asked softly.

Sebs attention jerked out of his thoughts and he glanced up at chuck before looking back down, "yeah?"

"Do you wanna do something tonight? With me?" Chuck asked hopefully, "it looks like you could use a night out."

Seb looked up at chuck, finally meeting his eyes, "like...just us?" He asked.

Chuck nodded, "yeah..we haven't went out, just us, in a while." He said.

Seb nodded, smiling a bit, "okay...yeah...I'd like that." He said.

Chuck smiled back, "okay..sweet. I'll...come get you at 7?"

Seb nodded again, smiling a bit wider, "okay."

When chuck walked away, seb was still smiling, biting his lip gently.

Pat smiled at seb, "someone's feeling better?" He asked hopefully.

Seb nodded, "yeah...a lot better." He said softly before starting to eat his breakfast.

...

"So where are we going?" Seb asked.

"A quiet bar that no one knows about." Chuck smiled, keeping his eyes on the road as he drove.

"Cool." Seb said, smiling.

Chuck noticed that seb did seem a LOT happier than yesterday. But he also seen that he was still sad. When they arrived at the bar, they ordered their drinks and sat silently.

"so...you wanna tell me what's been on your mind or do I have to guess?" Chuck asked, smiling sadly at seb.

Seb sighed, and shrugged, "I dunno."

Chuck gave him a look, "seb."

Seb couldn't help but smile a bit, "you know me too well."

"That's what happened after years of living in the same house." Chuck smiled, "you know you can tell me right?"

"I know.." Seb nodded, biting his lip, "I just....don't know if I'm ready to tell you.." He said softly, taking a sip of his drink.

"Take your time." Chuck smiled, taking a rather large drink out of his drink.

It was silent for a few moments and seb was lost in his thoughts. What if he told chuck now? Even if it was just about his depression...he probably wouldn't care anyway. And suddenly, seb was angry.

"Why do you care anyway?" He asked softly.

Chuck stared at him, "what?" He asked surprised and not quite sure if he heard seb right.

"Nothing...I...I'll be right back." The small man stuttered before getting up and walking to the bathroom. When he reached the small room, his hands gripped the counter tightly and he stared at himself in the mirror.

*Get a grip lefebvre.*

He squeezed his eyes shut and took multiple deep breaths.

*Don't blow this. The one night you have chuck to yourself. Act normal.*

He opened his eyes and splashed water on his face, sighing a the cooling sensation.

Chuck sat, worrying at the bar as he waited for seb to return. Did he do something wrong?

And then seb returned, putting chuck out of his misery. The latter smiled, "hey." He said softly.

"Hi." Seb smiled back, "so...how's life?" He asked.

Chuck shrugged, "could be better."

"I feel you buddy." Seb said, taking a drink.

They made casual small talk for a while before Sebs eyes widend, seeing An all too fimiliar man walking through the doors, "shit." He breathed, looking away and turning his back to the door.

"What?" Chuck asked, looking around.

"Don't make it too obvious!" Seb hissed, turns chucks barstool seat around so he was facing the bar too.

"Seb, what's going on?" Chuck asked, much to loud for Sebs liking.

"Just SHH! If anyone asks I'm your cousin and my names.....bob!" He whispered.

"What?! Sebastien that's Rediculious!" Chuck exclaimed.

"SHH!!" Seb shushed him, "please don't say hi, please don't say hi, PUH-LEEEAASSSEE don't say hi." He whispered.

"Sebastien? Is that you?"

Fuck.

He plastered a smile on his face and turned around, "Alex.....hi..." He said, forcing a surprised tone, "how've you been man?"

"I've been alright. How bout you?" Alex asked.

"Could be better." Seb said, trying not to look at him.

It still hurt. To be without him. Him and Alex broke up 2 years ago and everything still hurt. What Alex did to him..but how much he loved him....even after everything that happened....all came back within just one second of seeing his face.

"Um...this is my friend chuck." Seb said, introducing the two, "chuck this is Alex. My uh...my ex."

Chuck eyes the man before him before shaking his hand, "hey.." He said, the name rang a bell.

"Sup man." Alex grinned cockily at him.

"Um...seb, I think we should be going...the guys will be worried." Chuck said, noticing the look in Sebs eyes.

Seb nodded, "nice seeing you Alex."

"Yeah. You should call me sometime." Alex winked at seb as they walked away.

Seb practically ran out of the bar and broke into tears as soon as they reached the car.

"Seb, what happened?" Chuck asked, pulling the smaller man into his lap.

"He did so much to me." Seb sobbed, "he broke me. He beat me. He harassed me. He fucking raped me, told me I was useless...but I loved him. Fuck, when he wasn't an asshole he was so sweet and everything I wanted. And then he kicked me out, he found a new toy."

"Oh god, seb." Chuck sighed, rubbing his back, "do I need to go in there and kick some ass or what?"

Seb giggled through his tears at the thought of chuck beating Alex up, "no." He said, wiping his tears away, "can we just drive around, I don't wanna go home yet."

Chuck nodded, "sure thing sebby."

So they drove around Montreal, walked around the park, talked. Seb explained everything that happened with Alex. Chuck faintly remembered him, he remembered seb mentioning him a few times, babbling about how "sweet" he was. He remember seb being distant for a while, always wearing a sweater, even in the summer.

But seb assured him that he'd been through worse.

It was about 11 when they got home, chuck walked seb to his room.

"Ill see you tomorrow." Chuck said softly, turning to go to his room.

Seb hesitated, watching chucks retreating back, "Hey chuck." He said softly as chuck walked away.

"Yeah?" Chuck said, turning around.

Seb froze, he looked into chucks hazel eyes and melted. What was he thinking?! He couldn't tell him now!

"Thanks for tonight...I really needed to get my mind off things." Seb said, blushing lightly.

Chuck smiled, "anytime seb."

Seb watched him walk down the hall and Into his room before sighing and closing his own door. His head rolled back, hitting the wooden structure.

*Should've told him.*