I keep running back and forth between you and what is real
How to decide whether to choose reality over fantasy
do you want it to be realistic or fictional
but what if the fantasy i'm deciding against is the same as this fucked up thing
i could've mistaken for reality
baby i don't want you unless you exist
even if your existence is as vague as mine
you'll still be the last thought to enter my mind right before i fall asleep
aching for you to be next to me
and i fucking know you're not real
i'm not real
we're not authentic
but if there's any sort of way we can continue whatever
we're doing today because even though it's a fantasy
i feel better than i do when its real
so please someone explain to me
how i feel since i can't seem to understand
and this is really fucking driving me mad
tell me how did i get this bad
