Spencer Reid × Reader One Shots [slow updates]

Unsteady (Pt. Two of 'Used for Sex')

{Dedicated to InnerDeception7 as they asked for a part two :3}

Spencer's P.O.V

BEEP. BEEP. BEEP. BEEP. A steady heartbeat. Her steady heartbeat. The heartbeat that gives us hope, that makes us believe she'll wake up & we'll all be able to joke around like we used to do BEFORE this happened. Before I let this happen. This is all my fault. She's here because of me.

I run a hand through my hair & the lump in my throat begins to form once again. I take deep breaths, but it doesn't help. Tears escape my eyes & I bite my bottom lip. I'm not ready for her to leave yet. Not now, not ever. I take a deep breath & Morgan comes in. "You doing okay kid?" I chuckle. "I mean, I've been crying to Garcia's house for two weeks. I don't know what else to do if you want my honesty."

Morgan sighs. "Reid, I know she means everything to you, but when are you going to tell her?" I shrug. "Do we even know if she'll make it, Morgan?" He shakes his head. "No, but I can guarantee you this; even if she wakes up for only five seconds, tell her you love her. That's as much you can say. She'll probably feel like the happiest girl ever." I sigh. "What if she finds me weird?" He smirks. "She won't. After all, that is your best friend!" I nod.

"Thanks Morgan." He nods & leaves the room. I take a deep breath as I continue to listen to (Y/N)'s heartbeat. I look at her beautiful face & I relax. I close my eyes & lean back as I remember every little thing we did; fun, awkward, & above all, childish. "Reid?" I open my eyes & they meet her beautiful (E/C) ones. "You okay?" She asks. "I am now that I know you're okay. Let me call the doctor to tell you're awake." She grabs my hand & I look down at her. "I love you Doctor Spencer Reid!"

My heart flutters & my face lights up. "I-" (Y/N) lets go of my hand & closes her eyes once again. Her heartbeat becomes steady, but then it stops. The doctors & nurses rush in the room & they tell me I had to leave. Although, I couldn't move. I stood there frozen like a statue. She was only away for a few seconds! It wasn't enough time for me to tell her that I love her. I love her more than anything! A tear escapes my eyes while I get dragged out of the room.

"Reid?" JJ asks. I look up at her. "I didn't get to tell her." I mumble. "What?" JJ becomes confused, but I don't repeat myself. "Nothing. Forget it." She pulls me into a hug and I cry on her shoulder. What if this was the last time I'll see her?

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A few days passed and I still haven't slept or received any news from the team. Hotch sent me home for rest the same day she woke up, but I still haven't gotten any; not even a nap. I haven't ate or showered at all. You can say I lost a lot of wait & the small abs I had were fading away. Nothing mattered right now except (Y/N). My phone ringed & I answer it without checking the caller ID. "This is Reid." I say with a audio rasp in my voice. I forgot to mention that I've also cried way too much as I still blame myself.

"Pretty boy, do me a favor & shave the little bits of hair you have from your beard, shower, brush your teeth and dress nice. While you're at it, get a haircut." Morgan says from the other line. "If I were to get a haircut, what style do it have in mind?" I ask him. "What you had a while back; the one you had when we went to Rossi's house & you got pissed at JJ?" I chuckle at that memory. "Why?" I ask out of curiosity. "You need it! I don't want to pick you up later & you smell & look like a mess!" He says & I sigh. "Fine!" With that, I hang up & put my phone down.

I head to my bathroom & I get undressed. I shower, brush my teeth & shave. I get dressed in jeans, a T-shirt & my converse. I get my haircut & I put on a different T-shirt & I put on a blazer. Morgan texts me asking if I was ready. I replied with a yes & I heard him honk his horn from his car. I head outside & he smirks. "You clean up nice pretty boy!" He says & I chuckle. "Thanks." He drives off & we sit there in a comfortable silence. We head to a restaurant & I look at him in confusion. "Don't worry! The team is here. We know you haven't ate like most of us, but you had it worse, so we decided to at least eat somewhere that isn't too full!"

I sigh. "Alright. Let's get this over with." I say & we head inside. I take a deep breath & Hotch smiles at me. "Reid, you'll thank us later!" Garcia blinds me & I believe Emily begins guiding me through the restaurant. She sits me down on a chair & I get confused once again. "I'm sorry Reid, but we have to get away from you for a while. When you hear a knock, take off the blindfold." Rossi says & I sigh. "Alright!" I say a little aggravated & about twenty seconds passed before I heard a knock. I take off the blindfold & I couldn't believe my eyes. A tear streams down my face when I seen (Y/N).

She flashed me her beautiful smile along with a soft giggle & I get up. She becomes shocked & I knew she felt as if her & the team did a mistake. I cleared her head & shocked her when I kissed her softly." She kisses me back & I rest my hands on her cheeks. "I love you so much!" I tell her & her blush makes me smile even more as I knew it was natural. "I love you too." She says with a small smile. She's wearing a blue dress that goes slightly above her knees, black heels, & her hair was (H/S)[A/N: hair style; not putting a specific style because i know some of you might have short hair :3 love you guys!]

"You're so beautiful!" I say while going back to my seat. "Not really! You on the other hand, look fantastic as always! Cool haircut! I actually love that cut on you!" I blush at her words. (sorry if you don't...) "Thank you." I say & she giggles. "You're welcome Doctor Reid." She says with a smirk. I knew this was the start of our happiness. I'm quite shocked the team was okay with it! Actually, I'm fine with it too! I just hope she doesn't tease me too much at work.