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Izaya's pov:
It's been a week since me and shizu-chan got together. He never leaves my side. He's always there for me. He doesn't even get angry at me anymore. He's always acting so kind and gentle around me. He's changed so much in such a small amount of time that I wonder why? Did he decide to change for me? Did I change him? He still doesn't let me go outside though..."izaya, you've been staring at you food for about an hour now. What's bothering you?" The blond asked in a worried tone. "Nothing in particular." I sighed and started to eat.
Just then his phone rang. He slowly got up and answered it. "Hello? Oh, hey." He answered. Sounded like it was Tom on the other line. Shizu-chan hasn't left the house in a while either. "I'm sorry, I can't." He answered in a sigh. I frowned. That's how he always ends all the calls he's gotten until now. He's stopped going outside and sometimes doesn't even answer his calls. Is it because of me? Is he shutting himself in for my sake? I don't want that. I want him to be himself again. But at the same time I don't want him to leave me for even a second. How much more selfish can I get? I'm such a burden. "Izaya, are you tired? Would you like to go to bed?" He asked kindly. I nodded and made my way upstairs. I got ready for bed laid down as shizu-chan lied down next to me, pulling me close to his chest.
I snuggled closely into his chest and started to close my eyes. But I wasn't sleepy. Not even the tiniest bit. A soft chuckle quietly escaped my lips as a loud snore rang throughout the whole bedroom. Shizu-chan's a fast sleeper. Or was he just really tired of taking care of me all day? I slowly and carefully got up, making my way towards the window, gazing upon the shiny small stars that scattered throughout the night sky. I missed this. I missed the outside. Yet it pains me to face my once beloved human race. I can never be the same. But not only am I ruining my own life, also Shizuo-chan's. how cruel of me. Maybe if I just leave everyone would be happy. Maybe Even shizu-chan would be relieved after this huge burden's been removed from his chest. I should just leave.
With that thought set in mind, I slowly but carefully made my way to the roof top of the apartment and smiled while looking down at the beautiful city I once adored. ' The moment you stepped foot in this town, everyone's life became a living hell thanks to you!! ' the words that the blond once barked at me rang loudly in my mind causing me to shake with fear and sadness. ' Nobody likes you izaya, you're just a nuisance! Just go die and leave everybody at peace! You're existence is nothing but a bad influence, you shouldn't have existed in the first place!!!' He's right. He's always been right. It was just me who never listened. But now I'm listening. His words are echoing loud and clear in my mind. Let's finally put an end to this. I stepped on the edge of the building and closed my eyes. I'm sorry shizuo. I'm so sorry. I've caused you and the others about enough trouble. On the count of three, I'll leave you all at peace...I hope you can still forgive me though.
ONE. I let one foot off the edge.
TWO. i let myself fall forward.
THREE. A small smile appeared on my lips as tears streamed down my cheeks.
"IZAAAAYYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!"
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Depression (shizuo x izaya)
FanfictionWhen izaya came to realize that he had somehow developed feelings for the monster of ikebokuro, he tried to hide them. But everytime he would face the protozoan, it would become harder and harder for him to control himself. What will happen when he...
