Who Are You Now

Letting You Go

Chapter 20
Rachels pov:
"I wanna a divorce." I said looking Finn straight in the face.

He looked at me shocked , his face was blank and he was frozen on top of me. I wanted to say something but I already had and now there was nothing more say. I felt numb,broken inside, and nothing could fix what I had said already. Finn got up up and walked into the bathroom to get dress. He didn't even look at me when he got up. I laid there motionless until finally I decided to get up and get dress.

(2 days later )
It's been two days since I told Finn I wanna divorce and we haven't talked since. Nobody but him and I know what happened and I wanted to keep it that way. I walked into the diner to see Santana and Kurt.

"Hey you finally came out of the bedroom what were you and Hudson sick of doing it in the apartment?" Santana asked me.

I looked at her and stayed silent.

"Whats wrong Rachel?" Kurt asked me.

I looked at them and then started to cry.

"Woah, hey its okay." Kurt said hugging me along with Santana.

(Later)
The diner was closing and Kurt brought me a piece of cake as Santana and him sat down.

"Okay Berry-Hudson , whats going on?" Santana asked me.

I took a breath and said,

"Finn and I are getting a divorce." I told them.

"What!" They both said shocked.

"How could this be I thought everything was okay." Kurt said.

"It's not though Kurt, we're not the same people we were 5 years ago and we can't fix the damage thats been done no matter what we do." I said crying.

"Oh Rach." Santana said hugging me.

"What is Finn saying?" Kurt asked me.

"He and I aren't talking. He won't even look at me he's so upset." I said.

They gave me a hug and I cried.

(The next night)
I walked into the apartment to see Finn sitting in the kitchen. I haven't talked to him for days now and he hasn't even slept in the bed with me.

"Hi." I said timidly.

He took a sip of he's beer.

"Hi." He said back.

"Have you been here all day?" I asked him.

"No , I uh, went for a walk in park and then to lunch with Kurt while you were at rehearsal." He told me.

"Thats good." I said.

"Yeah." He said.

We were both silent and I was about to leave when I said,

"Finn, this divorce , it's not because I don't love you anymore." I told him.

"Rachel no one is asking you to explain why we're doing this." He said.

"I need to tell you though. I need you to know that I do love you, I love you more than you will ever know but I have to let you go." I told him.

"Why? Why do you have to let me go!" He yelled throwing the beer bottle.

"Because I'm not that girl you fell in love with Finn!" I yelled.

"Then who are you!" He yelled.

"I DON'T KNOW! I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE FINN!ALL I KNOW IS THAT WHEN YOU WENT MISSING A PART OF ME DIED INSIDE , AND THEN I BEGAN TO HEAL MYSELF AND I BEGAN TO START OVER AND THEN YOU CAME BACK FINN! YOU CAN BACK AND IT MESSED EVERYTHING UP!" I yelled at him.

He looked at me and I stood there in shock instantly regretting what I said.

"Finn I'm sorry." I said starting to apologize.

"YOU THINK IT WAS EASY FOR ME TO COME BACK HERE! TO COME BACK AND SEE YOU WITH ANOTHER MAN! TO SEE YOU IN LOVE WITH ANOTHER MAN! HOW SELFISH CAN YOU BE RACHEL? I WAS IN A PRISON I DIDN'T MOVE ON FROM YOU I WAS FIGHTING TO SEE YOU AGAIN! I WAS FIGHTING TO SEE YOU AGAIN BECAUSE I LOVE YOU OR ATLEAST I DID!BUT NOW I DON'T YOU ANYMORE YOU ARE NOT THE WOMAN I MARRIED!" He yelled at me

I looked at him hurt and said,

"I'm not the woman you married Finn! I'm a grown woman , I am stronger than I used to be and you can't hate me for trying to be happy again because that is what you wanted ! For me to be happy even after you were gone! You made a vow to me..."

"Don't give me that bull shit ! You're the one who wanted a divorce! You're the one that broke your vow to always love me." He said.

"You and I both know that this marriage isn't working! We are falling a part Finn! Are marriage is crumpling and know matter how much we pretend to be happy you and I know we're not happy! We're not the two kids we used to be when we were young we're different people!" I yelled.

He looked at me and then the door opened, it was Santana and Kurt.

"Woah what did we miss?" Santana said.

Finn and I looked at eachother and then Finn said,

"We're getting a divorce." And he stormed off.